Scripture:
Matthews 15: 11 "It is not what enters into the mouth that defiles the man, but what proceeds out of the mouth, this defiles the man."
Observation:
I am so self conscious of not wanting to be bad a example of Christian to my fellow non-Christian friends and co-workers, I am cautious when I speak in front of them and around them. The most difficult would be when I meet up with my closest friends and family, I think I lose that control, and wanting to feel accepted I lose my Christian consciousness. I can't say that my mouth is clean. Even at times, with occasions of struggle with other relatives and hears the struggles my parents go through with them, I have extremely hard time composing myself. Like the other day, talking with my mom on the phone, after she share that there was family dinner at one of the family house because we have other relatives from Korea. My first thought was how did it go, what could you have possibly said? But as conversation proceed, I realized how still upsetting I was about the whole situation. When my mom share that she didn't bother and even in the same room, she didn't relate to them, I was extremely happy about that. But when a child doesn't acknowledge my mom, that is total disrespect, and my mom went on saying "I know my children will not do that no matter what the circumstances are." However, my mouth spoke quicker then my thoughts, I said no, I will do exactly same and if needed I will bring the issue to discussion. Now after the conversation, I wonder is that really necessary? I was more disappointed at myself, for not applying all the lesson I have endure of forgiveness and letting the situation not take better of me. If I was really there, I might have had difficult time composing but I would have managed and maintain my Christian consciousness for the sake of families. I know if my mom was not there, they would have went on a rampage to say negative things about my parents and the business ventures.
Application:
Let my heart be renew and cleansed, so that the mouth which God has provided will be spoken with kind words and words which God will be glorified. For my mouth to be clean my heart needs to be cleaned.
Need to pray more and relinquish all that negative energy, and forgive them and also accept them for who they are, in that will make my journey will be more joyful. But the bumps are challenges from God so I shall overcome one bump at a time.
Prayer:
Father God, Almighty God, thank you so much for the shelter and unconditional love for me and my family. Our family and relative are very dysfunctional, so much hatred and betrayals. Father give us the heart to forgive and encourage one another to heal the wound. Father give me the strength to forgive and let me not lose my control. Father help and guide me that I may have Christian consciousness within me always. Father you have given us the mouth and this body to do your will, Father God, give me to courage and strength to do your will with what you have given me. Let me not disappoint you, but let my actions and words bring much glory to your kingdom. Father you are amazing your love is so overwhelming, sometime I have to take a step back to understand why I deserve so much of your love and blessing, but Father you have chosen me for a purpose, let me fulfil your purpose in this world. Father thank you for loving me for who I am and blessing me so much of abundance we take for granted, Lord you are great and let your angels work and mold me. In your name I pray amen!
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