Scripture:
Matthews 15: 11 "It is not what enters into the mouth that defiles the man, but what proceeds out of the mouth, this defiles the man."
Observation:
I am so self conscious of not wanting to be bad a example of Christian to my fellow non-Christian friends and co-workers, I am cautious when I speak in front of them and around them. The most difficult would be when I meet up with my closest friends and family, I think I lose that control, and wanting to feel accepted I lose my Christian consciousness. I can't say that my mouth is clean. Even at times, with occasions of struggle with other relatives and hears the struggles my parents go through with them, I have extremely hard time composing myself. Like the other day, talking with my mom on the phone, after she share that there was family dinner at one of the family house because we have other relatives from Korea. My first thought was how did it go, what could you have possibly said? But as conversation proceed, I realized how still upsetting I was about the whole situation. When my mom share that she didn't bother and even in the same room, she didn't relate to them, I was extremely happy about that. But when a child doesn't acknowledge my mom, that is total disrespect, and my mom went on saying "I know my children will not do that no matter what the circumstances are." However, my mouth spoke quicker then my thoughts, I said no, I will do exactly same and if needed I will bring the issue to discussion. Now after the conversation, I wonder is that really necessary? I was more disappointed at myself, for not applying all the lesson I have endure of forgiveness and letting the situation not take better of me. If I was really there, I might have had difficult time composing but I would have managed and maintain my Christian consciousness for the sake of families. I know if my mom was not there, they would have went on a rampage to say negative things about my parents and the business ventures.
Application:
Let my heart be renew and cleansed, so that the mouth which God has provided will be spoken with kind words and words which God will be glorified. For my mouth to be clean my heart needs to be cleaned.
Need to pray more and relinquish all that negative energy, and forgive them and also accept them for who they are, in that will make my journey will be more joyful. But the bumps are challenges from God so I shall overcome one bump at a time.
Prayer:
Father God, Almighty God, thank you so much for the shelter and unconditional love for me and my family. Our family and relative are very dysfunctional, so much hatred and betrayals. Father give us the heart to forgive and encourage one another to heal the wound. Father give me the strength to forgive and let me not lose my control. Father help and guide me that I may have Christian consciousness within me always. Father you have given us the mouth and this body to do your will, Father God, give me to courage and strength to do your will with what you have given me. Let me not disappoint you, but let my actions and words bring much glory to your kingdom. Father you are amazing your love is so overwhelming, sometime I have to take a step back to understand why I deserve so much of your love and blessing, but Father you have chosen me for a purpose, let me fulfil your purpose in this world. Father thank you for loving me for who I am and blessing me so much of abundance we take for granted, Lord you are great and let your angels work and mold me. In your name I pray amen!
4/27/2011 - LJ "Detox the poision in me"
Scripture:
Psalm 142: 7 "Bring my soul out of prison, So that I may give thanks to your name; The righteous will surround me, For You will deal bountifully with me."
Observation:
I feel like I am of my own prisoner. Like today and any other given day, I listen to Christian radio station in the car and at work. But when I face in a discussion environment, where group of people are speaking here and there, good of people and bad mouthing people, I get sucked into that as well. Is that right thing? I feel like I am stuck as to pleasing my friends and wanting to keep the balance of God in my life.
Also, with family ordeals, my parents has struggle through enough, last year alone they have lost $600K in business and etc, because their business relationship with so called "aunts" got tarnished. The share of the business was never equally distributed, also to recover from there they had made choices which were not wise. I continue to feed myself and my family does openly talk that we are not in control, if so called "aunts" moralize money and bring the discomfort within family, I know the ultimate punishment will be given.
However, though I think that I know that, I guess I want a instant effect, and when that does not happen as I like, my faith that the situation will get any better fades. I know deep down all things happen, because God has plan for better, but when I see so much struggle, and pain it wonders how long do we need to go on like this? Why can't the bad be punished? Why do I need to see that bad are doing so well yet the sufferings continue to suffer. This case is not only with my family but in general. Sometime I do wonder, if this is the righteous way he want me and my family to live and go forth?
Application:
Believe in what I feel and know. God is in control, he knows today and tomorrow. The suffering and pain are so small, it is not worth pondering. God bless abundantly in so many ways to the faithful servant. He will spit out the ones who portray faithful servant but does not act as one. Beside all the struggle and doubts and concern, I will need lay those to rest, as they are something else manipulating with my mind. But truly believe 100% of what I feel and sense. All the current rewards can be taken away at a snap of finger. Let my heart or mind be poisoned with this after thoughts. But just believe what I know already and feel already. Life not about wealth but it much more rewarding when life is fill with God's righteousness.
Prayer:
Father, almighty great God, thank you for your words today. Thank you for providing me the right words of your wisdom at the time when I need. You seem to bring to words of encouragement that apply to my struggle. Father you are such a great God, God of healing and love. Father thank you for continue to stir my heart and mold my heart to be clean. To be a faithful servant, to understand how to be faithful servant. Lord my mind and heart is partially poison, I doubt and I worry, but Father I know you have everything under control, everything and anything that happens is for your ultimate plan and your will. Father help me so that I may not lose my focus of walking closer to you, and I may listen to you and your words, I may listen to my heart and let the struggles be a breeze on my shoulder that I can dust if off. Father God, thank you so much for loving me and my family unconditionally regardless of what we might think of you at times. But Lord, you have chosen us for a purpose, so Father God, help and guide us to lead in the direction you have plan for us, so that everything in this world we do may bring so much glory in your kingdom. Amen!
Psalm 142: 7 "Bring my soul out of prison, So that I may give thanks to your name; The righteous will surround me, For You will deal bountifully with me."
Observation:
I feel like I am of my own prisoner. Like today and any other given day, I listen to Christian radio station in the car and at work. But when I face in a discussion environment, where group of people are speaking here and there, good of people and bad mouthing people, I get sucked into that as well. Is that right thing? I feel like I am stuck as to pleasing my friends and wanting to keep the balance of God in my life.
Also, with family ordeals, my parents has struggle through enough, last year alone they have lost $600K in business and etc, because their business relationship with so called "aunts" got tarnished. The share of the business was never equally distributed, also to recover from there they had made choices which were not wise. I continue to feed myself and my family does openly talk that we are not in control, if so called "aunts" moralize money and bring the discomfort within family, I know the ultimate punishment will be given.
However, though I think that I know that, I guess I want a instant effect, and when that does not happen as I like, my faith that the situation will get any better fades. I know deep down all things happen, because God has plan for better, but when I see so much struggle, and pain it wonders how long do we need to go on like this? Why can't the bad be punished? Why do I need to see that bad are doing so well yet the sufferings continue to suffer. This case is not only with my family but in general. Sometime I do wonder, if this is the righteous way he want me and my family to live and go forth?
Application:
Believe in what I feel and know. God is in control, he knows today and tomorrow. The suffering and pain are so small, it is not worth pondering. God bless abundantly in so many ways to the faithful servant. He will spit out the ones who portray faithful servant but does not act as one. Beside all the struggle and doubts and concern, I will need lay those to rest, as they are something else manipulating with my mind. But truly believe 100% of what I feel and sense. All the current rewards can be taken away at a snap of finger. Let my heart or mind be poisoned with this after thoughts. But just believe what I know already and feel already. Life not about wealth but it much more rewarding when life is fill with God's righteousness.
Prayer:
Father, almighty great God, thank you for your words today. Thank you for providing me the right words of your wisdom at the time when I need. You seem to bring to words of encouragement that apply to my struggle. Father you are such a great God, God of healing and love. Father thank you for continue to stir my heart and mold my heart to be clean. To be a faithful servant, to understand how to be faithful servant. Lord my mind and heart is partially poison, I doubt and I worry, but Father I know you have everything under control, everything and anything that happens is for your ultimate plan and your will. Father help me so that I may not lose my focus of walking closer to you, and I may listen to you and your words, I may listen to my heart and let the struggles be a breeze on my shoulder that I can dust if off. Father God, thank you so much for loving me and my family unconditionally regardless of what we might think of you at times. But Lord, you have chosen us for a purpose, so Father God, help and guide us to lead in the direction you have plan for us, so that everything in this world we do may bring so much glory in your kingdom. Amen!
4/26/2011 - LJ "Evaluate yourself"
Scripture:
Matthews 13: 17 "For truly I say to you that many prophets and righteous men desired to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it."
Observation:
During our CG we talked about salvation. The first thing that went through my mind was I know I am saved. That acknowledge was rooted in pit of my stomach. When the discussion went on, I wonder do I only know I am saved because we as Christan from our childhood, have that knowledge embedded in our head.
This raise much of legitimate concerns which I have been dealing with daily. Do I live in the grace of God? If I am saved, why do I live in the direction which is not righteous. Sometime not always I am departing further away from God. Yet other days I feel I am in so sync with God.
How do we define salvation. And this verse was part of my life journal today. It bothers me more because if I am saved, I should be living daily in the direction of righteousness and hear the words of God. And be able to share my faith with non-believers too. I have questions, do I think I try to live and hear but really, I filter lot of things to benefit my own good. I may put that self image that I am Christian and tried to live in righteous way, but do I really see and hear what God wants? Have I come to be those Sunday Christian and Holiday Christan where I adapt to God's will only on those days?
What is salvation? If I am save what is my next step to really hear his words and purse that desire I have to live in his grace and see his glory.
Application:
I do not want to be those who speak just out of tongue and see what they want to see. I want to be a faithful servant who see and hear from my heart. The true callings and teachings from God. More I want this I know the best route is to study his word. Read and meditate on the book, I need to forgive those and open myself to allowing to other to enter and share their love. Especially allow myself to accept that I am forgiven and allow God love to poured onto me. Not to be hesitant by his unconditional blessing. Not feel guilty or undeserved of this love. That is the Satan talking which will stall me from coming close to God and to be able to really faithfully serve him.
Prayer:
Amazing Father, your grace and your love is just so unconditional. Thank you for the abundant blessing which we take for granted daily. Father I thank you for saving me and saving my sins by sacrificing your son Jesus Christ on a cross, who had to endure the pain and carry that heavy burden on his own. Through all that suffering, he was holy he stood by your words. Father like Matthew chapter 13, I do not wish to be those who pretend to know your words and see your will. I desire and want to live and apply daily. Lord give me the strength and educate me to be more just and faithful servant. Father let me actions brings you glory and praise. Punish me for being a slacker and direct me to your light. Father God, thank you for loving me shielding me, Father continue to mold my heart and cleanse my heart, that I am able to fulfil all that I do in your righteousness. I thank you for amazing God that you are, and your forever more blessings and love you have for me. In your name I pray Amen!
Matthews 13: 17 "For truly I say to you that many prophets and righteous men desired to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it."
Observation:
During our CG we talked about salvation. The first thing that went through my mind was I know I am saved. That acknowledge was rooted in pit of my stomach. When the discussion went on, I wonder do I only know I am saved because we as Christan from our childhood, have that knowledge embedded in our head.
This raise much of legitimate concerns which I have been dealing with daily. Do I live in the grace of God? If I am saved, why do I live in the direction which is not righteous. Sometime not always I am departing further away from God. Yet other days I feel I am in so sync with God.
How do we define salvation. And this verse was part of my life journal today. It bothers me more because if I am saved, I should be living daily in the direction of righteousness and hear the words of God. And be able to share my faith with non-believers too. I have questions, do I think I try to live and hear but really, I filter lot of things to benefit my own good. I may put that self image that I am Christian and tried to live in righteous way, but do I really see and hear what God wants? Have I come to be those Sunday Christian and Holiday Christan where I adapt to God's will only on those days?
What is salvation? If I am save what is my next step to really hear his words and purse that desire I have to live in his grace and see his glory.
Application:
I do not want to be those who speak just out of tongue and see what they want to see. I want to be a faithful servant who see and hear from my heart. The true callings and teachings from God. More I want this I know the best route is to study his word. Read and meditate on the book, I need to forgive those and open myself to allowing to other to enter and share their love. Especially allow myself to accept that I am forgiven and allow God love to poured onto me. Not to be hesitant by his unconditional blessing. Not feel guilty or undeserved of this love. That is the Satan talking which will stall me from coming close to God and to be able to really faithfully serve him.
Prayer:
Amazing Father, your grace and your love is just so unconditional. Thank you for the abundant blessing which we take for granted daily. Father I thank you for saving me and saving my sins by sacrificing your son Jesus Christ on a cross, who had to endure the pain and carry that heavy burden on his own. Through all that suffering, he was holy he stood by your words. Father like Matthew chapter 13, I do not wish to be those who pretend to know your words and see your will. I desire and want to live and apply daily. Lord give me the strength and educate me to be more just and faithful servant. Father let me actions brings you glory and praise. Punish me for being a slacker and direct me to your light. Father God, thank you for loving me shielding me, Father continue to mold my heart and cleanse my heart, that I am able to fulfil all that I do in your righteousness. I thank you for amazing God that you are, and your forever more blessings and love you have for me. In your name I pray Amen!
4/25/2011 - "Wash your dirty mouth"
Scripture:
Matthews 12: 36 & 37 "But I tell you that every careless word that people speak, they shall give an accounting for it in the day of judgment. For by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned."
Observation:
I get careless sometimes and don't really filter out what I should say and what I should not say. To start off, I let my emotions get to me especially to those who I am close to. The other day, I was talking to a friends to resolve some of our issues. I thought I would stay calm, and had jot down the questions and concerns prior so that I won't let my emotions run over me. But in the middle of our conversation, I let my emotions control the conversation. I had taken the floor and start to zing every corner and really not giving any time for my friend to speak freely. By far, I let my emotion get to me and show how hurt and how much I can pay back the same. At the end of the day, this was truly in my heart and which I had openly share, however, many of could be altered that both of us came out with best resolution.
Your emotions and you do not guard what you say, when you are in a circumstances where you have others who speak of you negatively or make comments that are untrue. How do you deal with that. I was in a position where I came close to their playing field and express my anger and hurt publicly. But at the end of the day, my words and actions need to be accountable. Those ignorant people do not know how to account for any of their actions. It is my lose to play in their field.
If they (Amy, there parents & stalking individual) feel they need to express their emotion and start to lash at you in a public, especially now days with help of public network where people can get connected easily.. By means do so. Any of the words they speak or say there is no truth base on that. I been there, but after all that, I want to to take responsibility for actions and what I say. I want to be the mature one, so at the end, I decided to ignore the whole thing. Though I get hurt, rather than bursting my hurt out to public and sharing with everyone else, I use my time of intimacy with God to talk to him.
Application:
As a servant of God, our words should be just and taken accountable for. Therefor with past experience and still ongoing experience of people lashing me and my family out with untruth words, I decide to take responsibility for my words, therefore I am cautious of what I say and how I respond. God is the only judge of my character and what my heart is really about. When my heart if fill with hurt and anger, I seek God to find peace and bring peace to my heart. Let the angers and anxiety be wash away by intimately speaking and spending time with God. Our God is jealous God, so better to spend my time with our amazing Father, versus wasting my words with people who are careless, and who will be judged by my Father.
Prayer:
Father help me to speak wise and speak in your just. Let the words that come out of my mouth be pleasing. Father thank you for your grace and blessing, your blessing has been abundant and for my family. Through the difficult times we may be face, Father we come to you and seek you to stir our heart that we may find peace. Let our heart be reflected of your grace. Lord you are our savior, and I want to be a faithful servant, give me to strength to seek you and put you as my priority through the hectic world which is filled with so much temptation and evil. Father God, thank you for loving me unconditional regardless, and sacrificing your one and only son to wash my sins and save me. Lord you are a great God, my struggles and pains are so small yet at times it is so overwhelming, Father I lay these on your hand, and guide me to be a righteous servant, that all my work in this world will bring praise your kingdom. Thank you for the cross, the heavy cross you carried and thank you for protecting me and my family. Thank you for giving us the strength to continue to forgive and learn to love those who bad mouth and hurt us. Father you are amazing and you are just, I love you and I pray in your glorious name Amen!
Matthews 12: 36 & 37 "But I tell you that every careless word that people speak, they shall give an accounting for it in the day of judgment. For by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned."
Observation:
I get careless sometimes and don't really filter out what I should say and what I should not say. To start off, I let my emotions get to me especially to those who I am close to. The other day, I was talking to a friends to resolve some of our issues. I thought I would stay calm, and had jot down the questions and concerns prior so that I won't let my emotions run over me. But in the middle of our conversation, I let my emotions control the conversation. I had taken the floor and start to zing every corner and really not giving any time for my friend to speak freely. By far, I let my emotion get to me and show how hurt and how much I can pay back the same. At the end of the day, this was truly in my heart and which I had openly share, however, many of could be altered that both of us came out with best resolution.
Your emotions and you do not guard what you say, when you are in a circumstances where you have others who speak of you negatively or make comments that are untrue. How do you deal with that. I was in a position where I came close to their playing field and express my anger and hurt publicly. But at the end of the day, my words and actions need to be accountable. Those ignorant people do not know how to account for any of their actions. It is my lose to play in their field.
If they (Amy, there parents & stalking individual) feel they need to express their emotion and start to lash at you in a public, especially now days with help of public network where people can get connected easily.. By means do so. Any of the words they speak or say there is no truth base on that. I been there, but after all that, I want to to take responsibility for actions and what I say. I want to be the mature one, so at the end, I decided to ignore the whole thing. Though I get hurt, rather than bursting my hurt out to public and sharing with everyone else, I use my time of intimacy with God to talk to him.
Application:
As a servant of God, our words should be just and taken accountable for. Therefor with past experience and still ongoing experience of people lashing me and my family out with untruth words, I decide to take responsibility for my words, therefore I am cautious of what I say and how I respond. God is the only judge of my character and what my heart is really about. When my heart if fill with hurt and anger, I seek God to find peace and bring peace to my heart. Let the angers and anxiety be wash away by intimately speaking and spending time with God. Our God is jealous God, so better to spend my time with our amazing Father, versus wasting my words with people who are careless, and who will be judged by my Father.
Prayer:
Father help me to speak wise and speak in your just. Let the words that come out of my mouth be pleasing. Father thank you for your grace and blessing, your blessing has been abundant and for my family. Through the difficult times we may be face, Father we come to you and seek you to stir our heart that we may find peace. Let our heart be reflected of your grace. Lord you are our savior, and I want to be a faithful servant, give me to strength to seek you and put you as my priority through the hectic world which is filled with so much temptation and evil. Father God, thank you for loving me unconditional regardless, and sacrificing your one and only son to wash my sins and save me. Lord you are a great God, my struggles and pains are so small yet at times it is so overwhelming, Father I lay these on your hand, and guide me to be a righteous servant, that all my work in this world will bring praise your kingdom. Thank you for the cross, the heavy cross you carried and thank you for protecting me and my family. Thank you for giving us the strength to continue to forgive and learn to love those who bad mouth and hurt us. Father you are amazing and you are just, I love you and I pray in your glorious name Amen!
4/24/2011 - "Thank you for Cross"
Scripture:
Matthews 11: 28-30 "Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.
Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and YOU WILL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOULS. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."
Observation:
When I get tired and weary I find myself contemplating how the world around is so screwed up. I don't stop to think that it might be me. On top of that I don't do anything new to change to improve the situation. Maybe the best thing I do is to ignore it. Sometime that can be the answer but not always. It seems like the same things that drain me down and tired me out seems to appear at times.
My life is an eventful, there are so much that it is sometime difficult to comprehend. I wonder if anything that happen is what is it.. I do need a reality check sometimes. Lately, I been going through insomnia, daily the most I can sleep is few hours before work.. With the weekends doesn't help much at all either. My point? When I am awake I am exhausted and anxiety overwhelms me.
At times, I want to take control of all the circumstance, when they are not to my expectation that is when I get overwhelmed, exhausted and fill with anxiety.
Application:
My ignorance has cause me to be tired and exhausted with my life. When I am tired and weary like the scripture said I need to lean on to God. He will shield me with peace and much needed rest. But why is it so difficult for me to do that? It sounds so easy yet the most difficult thing to live up to. Anything and everything that goes on is the will of God, to be faithful servant, I shall continue for intimate relationship with him. In so, I can reach to the humbling God that he is and he may give me peace in my soul.
Prayer:
Father Thank you for the Cross. The heavy cross you carried for sake of me. Father thank you for loving me and sacrificing your precious Son Jesus Christ to die on the cross for my sins. Father you are amazing and the love you have for me is not deserved, but thank you for loving me unconditionally. Father, I want to learn to build relationship which you plan for me. Father, thank you for working to mold my heart, thank you for giving me the this feelings to be hurt and learn to forgive. Father of Heaven, I am exhausted at times, my troubles are so big to me but so small to you, I lay them to you, that you will bring peace and find me the comfort I need to bring peace within my soul. Thank you amazing for the washing the heavy burden of my sins and wretchedness from me. Help me and guide me to be faithful servant Lord, let my work bring joy in your kingdom. Father I can't wait to enter your kingdom, and praise you. I thank you for the abundant blessing you provide and for my family. Thank you for your grace during out Auction, thank you for the generous heart of your servants. Father thank you and I love you! In your name I pray Amen!
Matthews 11: 28-30 "Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.
Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and YOU WILL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOULS. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."
Observation:
When I get tired and weary I find myself contemplating how the world around is so screwed up. I don't stop to think that it might be me. On top of that I don't do anything new to change to improve the situation. Maybe the best thing I do is to ignore it. Sometime that can be the answer but not always. It seems like the same things that drain me down and tired me out seems to appear at times.
My life is an eventful, there are so much that it is sometime difficult to comprehend. I wonder if anything that happen is what is it.. I do need a reality check sometimes. Lately, I been going through insomnia, daily the most I can sleep is few hours before work.. With the weekends doesn't help much at all either. My point? When I am awake I am exhausted and anxiety overwhelms me.
At times, I want to take control of all the circumstance, when they are not to my expectation that is when I get overwhelmed, exhausted and fill with anxiety.
Application:
My ignorance has cause me to be tired and exhausted with my life. When I am tired and weary like the scripture said I need to lean on to God. He will shield me with peace and much needed rest. But why is it so difficult for me to do that? It sounds so easy yet the most difficult thing to live up to. Anything and everything that goes on is the will of God, to be faithful servant, I shall continue for intimate relationship with him. In so, I can reach to the humbling God that he is and he may give me peace in my soul.
Prayer:
Father Thank you for the Cross. The heavy cross you carried for sake of me. Father thank you for loving me and sacrificing your precious Son Jesus Christ to die on the cross for my sins. Father you are amazing and the love you have for me is not deserved, but thank you for loving me unconditionally. Father, I want to learn to build relationship which you plan for me. Father, thank you for working to mold my heart, thank you for giving me the this feelings to be hurt and learn to forgive. Father of Heaven, I am exhausted at times, my troubles are so big to me but so small to you, I lay them to you, that you will bring peace and find me the comfort I need to bring peace within my soul. Thank you amazing for the washing the heavy burden of my sins and wretchedness from me. Help me and guide me to be faithful servant Lord, let my work bring joy in your kingdom. Father I can't wait to enter your kingdom, and praise you. I thank you for the abundant blessing you provide and for my family. Thank you for your grace during out Auction, thank you for the generous heart of your servants. Father thank you and I love you! In your name I pray Amen!
4/22/2011 - "Pleasing our Jealous GOD"
Scripture:
Matthews 8: 26 "He said to them, "Why are you afraid, you men of little faith?" Then He got up and rebuked the winds and the sea, and it became perfectly calm"
Observation:
I think when things go well, that I say to myself I will follow God's faith and I will work to do his will. But at the end, we forgot his will and his purpose for us. I am so focus on what is going on right now at the moment and how to improve the situation, that I reluctant to forget that God is in control. No matter how much I focus to improve the situation on my own, it will not have the same outcome. My faith in God diminishes, when things go well in my life.
However, like now when things are all up in the air with no clear path of what the outcome will be like, I lean more towards God and his words. This is just like what God has said to the them who followed him, "men of little faith" I seek more of God's calling and work of his grace, when thing are trembling. Is this really right?
It seems like when things are trembling I become this faithful servant and seems that my heart and peace and therefore, God is listening to my cry.. He is stirring my heart for peace and comfort in him. Like these days, I been diligent and commit to listen to God's calling, because I am in much of suffering and will need lot of God's grace.
Application:
God should be my priority no matter what the circumstance in my life is. He should be praised and cry to during the good times and bad time. Praise him for the goods, and cry to him for the bad. Regardless of how much control I want to take in my life, understand God is in control and he will direct me to this or that path. If he thinks I am not being faithful he will lead me to direction which will allow me to come to him more. Our God is jealous God, and we need to sustain the consistency of listening and calling out to him.
Prayer:
Faithful Lord, thank you so much for another day of healing and blessing. Lord you are stirring my heart day to day to heal and see the brighter side of life. You have bless so abundantly with gifts and health. Through the outcomes in my life, you have stand by me and love me unconditionally. Father I take this time to thank you and to tell you I love you. As a sinner, I do not deserve your love but you have chosen me to be saved by your sacrifice. Father, continue to mold my heart and help me to be consistent, that I may not bring jealousy to you. I may serve you in faithful ways, Lord guide me teach me to be a faithful servant. To serve in the direction you have plan for me. Father I love you, you love shields me and complete me. Thank you for this bless day, thank you for my family. Father let my work in this world be pleasing to you. In your name I pray amen!
Matthews 8: 26 "He said to them, "Why are you afraid, you men of little faith?" Then He got up and rebuked the winds and the sea, and it became perfectly calm"
Observation:
I think when things go well, that I say to myself I will follow God's faith and I will work to do his will. But at the end, we forgot his will and his purpose for us. I am so focus on what is going on right now at the moment and how to improve the situation, that I reluctant to forget that God is in control. No matter how much I focus to improve the situation on my own, it will not have the same outcome. My faith in God diminishes, when things go well in my life.
However, like now when things are all up in the air with no clear path of what the outcome will be like, I lean more towards God and his words. This is just like what God has said to the them who followed him, "men of little faith" I seek more of God's calling and work of his grace, when thing are trembling. Is this really right?
It seems like when things are trembling I become this faithful servant and seems that my heart and peace and therefore, God is listening to my cry.. He is stirring my heart for peace and comfort in him. Like these days, I been diligent and commit to listen to God's calling, because I am in much of suffering and will need lot of God's grace.
Application:
God should be my priority no matter what the circumstance in my life is. He should be praised and cry to during the good times and bad time. Praise him for the goods, and cry to him for the bad. Regardless of how much control I want to take in my life, understand God is in control and he will direct me to this or that path. If he thinks I am not being faithful he will lead me to direction which will allow me to come to him more. Our God is jealous God, and we need to sustain the consistency of listening and calling out to him.
Prayer:
Faithful Lord, thank you so much for another day of healing and blessing. Lord you are stirring my heart day to day to heal and see the brighter side of life. You have bless so abundantly with gifts and health. Through the outcomes in my life, you have stand by me and love me unconditionally. Father I take this time to thank you and to tell you I love you. As a sinner, I do not deserve your love but you have chosen me to be saved by your sacrifice. Father, continue to mold my heart and help me to be consistent, that I may not bring jealousy to you. I may serve you in faithful ways, Lord guide me teach me to be a faithful servant. To serve in the direction you have plan for me. Father I love you, you love shields me and complete me. Thank you for this bless day, thank you for my family. Father let my work in this world be pleasing to you. In your name I pray amen!
4/20/2011 - "Sincerity of Heart"
Scripture:
Matthews 7: 7 & 8 "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened."
Observation:
Ask and it will be given, Amen to that. I honestly think he give in all fairness. These days, I ask the Lord to heal my heart and bring peace in my heart. It is tough to do so, with so much emotion over powering me, however, he is stirring my heart slowly. I manage to not let the situation consume me but rather I let the situation consume itself.
I realize that with all that harassing in my life, it is not worth the time to be sad about it. See that I am the victim. Rather take that time when I am victimizing myself, talk to the Lord and ask for his will to be done. Everything in life has his purpose and he will bring healing and wisdom in me.
The chapter 7 in Matthews is about how sincere your heart is. It leads to questions how sincere my heart for God is. Everyday is a new me, as I see small works which God is working in me. Because of that I can manage the such struggle. I know God has gone through much more then what I am going through he over came. I shall too. I know he is taking that stab in the heart when I am, I am know he is living the pain that I am going through. Knowing that is brings comfort, cause I am not going through this alone.
It just shows his unconditional love for me. How much he does care, and listens and work slowly to really mold my heart.
Application:
Got to seek my heart, my purpose need to be sincere. How do I work on the sincerity. All I can do is continue to mediate on his word, spend time (intimate time) with God. Rather then trying to find time to spend time with friends, use that time to speak with God. He knows the sincerity of my heart. I shall continue to ask him, pray to him to mold my heart and to make me a faithful servant. I need to be diligent and listen to his direction and follow him as a servant.
Prayer:
Oh amazing God, great God thank you for another blessing day. Thank you for stirring my heart to heal and your amazing work in molding my heart. Father thank you for loving me so unconditionally regardless of what I have done. You chosen me and save me by sacrificing your one and only son. Lord, help me to be a faithful servant, help me to put you as my priority. I seeks to walk in the path that bring all the glory to you.
Lord, I struggle with so much drama and distress, Father I ask for your guidance, I lay this in palm of your hand that you will work your miracles. You will bring peace and redemy for the broken hearts. Father it is not only me but my family has been broken, Father I ask you continue to mold the brokeness and help to glue the broken pieces into one. Please continue to mold our heart to forgive the ones who have brought so much pain and to love them. We are not the people to judge, you are the ultimate judge.
Father, I pray for those who are in pain that they would bring pains to my family and me. Give me the peace and comfort in their heart. Educate them that, life is not about themselves but life is about living in your grace. Father amend the broken relationship.
Lord, thank you for loving me and my family, thank you for your endless blessing. I love you and we love you. I pray thing I do bring much glory in your kingdom. Amen
Matthews 7: 7 & 8 "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened."
Observation:
Ask and it will be given, Amen to that. I honestly think he give in all fairness. These days, I ask the Lord to heal my heart and bring peace in my heart. It is tough to do so, with so much emotion over powering me, however, he is stirring my heart slowly. I manage to not let the situation consume me but rather I let the situation consume itself.
I realize that with all that harassing in my life, it is not worth the time to be sad about it. See that I am the victim. Rather take that time when I am victimizing myself, talk to the Lord and ask for his will to be done. Everything in life has his purpose and he will bring healing and wisdom in me.
The chapter 7 in Matthews is about how sincere your heart is. It leads to questions how sincere my heart for God is. Everyday is a new me, as I see small works which God is working in me. Because of that I can manage the such struggle. I know God has gone through much more then what I am going through he over came. I shall too. I know he is taking that stab in the heart when I am, I am know he is living the pain that I am going through. Knowing that is brings comfort, cause I am not going through this alone.
It just shows his unconditional love for me. How much he does care, and listens and work slowly to really mold my heart.
Application:
Got to seek my heart, my purpose need to be sincere. How do I work on the sincerity. All I can do is continue to mediate on his word, spend time (intimate time) with God. Rather then trying to find time to spend time with friends, use that time to speak with God. He knows the sincerity of my heart. I shall continue to ask him, pray to him to mold my heart and to make me a faithful servant. I need to be diligent and listen to his direction and follow him as a servant.
Prayer:
Oh amazing God, great God thank you for another blessing day. Thank you for stirring my heart to heal and your amazing work in molding my heart. Father thank you for loving me so unconditionally regardless of what I have done. You chosen me and save me by sacrificing your one and only son. Lord, help me to be a faithful servant, help me to put you as my priority. I seeks to walk in the path that bring all the glory to you.
Lord, I struggle with so much drama and distress, Father I ask for your guidance, I lay this in palm of your hand that you will work your miracles. You will bring peace and redemy for the broken hearts. Father it is not only me but my family has been broken, Father I ask you continue to mold the brokeness and help to glue the broken pieces into one. Please continue to mold our heart to forgive the ones who have brought so much pain and to love them. We are not the people to judge, you are the ultimate judge.
Father, I pray for those who are in pain that they would bring pains to my family and me. Give me the peace and comfort in their heart. Educate them that, life is not about themselves but life is about living in your grace. Father amend the broken relationship.
Lord, thank you for loving me and my family, thank you for your endless blessing. I love you and we love you. I pray thing I do bring much glory in your kingdom. Amen
4/19/2011 - "Struggles of forgiving the hurt"
Scripture:
Matthews 6: 14 & 15 "For if you forgive others for their transgressions, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others, then your Father will not forgive your transgressions."
Application:
My life is screw up as it is. For the past 1.5 years I been dealing with personal harassment. In the beginning I really did not understand what have I done but love the person to be harassed? Yes there were a bit of boundaries that should have not been cross but did. For that I repent. However, I have manage to intimated by it initially and really thought about "how to get rid of the problem" if that took physical power to do so, or natural freak accident even better. As the harassment has died down, my thoughts of such were not a concern.
But the harassment had started again, it has been very periodically. Especially in a age where our lives are power by media, there is something called cyber harassment. I guess that is felony too. Beside the fact, I manage to ignore or do anything to provoke even more. Since I joined CG and reading a challenging book called Crazy Love, it really ponder on me that, the situation is out of my control. If this individual cannot see beyond their personal failures and responsibility in their broken relationship, no one can change that. No matter what others say, it will be here say.
Since this new journey of defining my Christian life, my first thing was my suffering and trails are very minuscule to what God has suffered through to save and wash my sins. So I should let him take control, but most of all rather then being angry.. I should forgive this individual for the actions and any abuse or harassment brought onto me. Really should love to love and take apathy on this individual.
For God has said, love our enemies as we love our neighbors. This verse goes more further that as Christian we should forgive those who have hurt and cause much pain in our life, then God will forgive my sin. To set an example of what Christian is all about. It is not about doing this specific things when people are around, but most importantly how do you spend your time with God when people are not watching and it is intimate moment with you and him.
God test us, to see if we are the true Christian or the show off Christian. To pass, I started to dug deeper into me, to find the love for this hated person and forgive for their transgression, it take time but I know God will stir my heart and give me courage to do so.
Application:
Hmmm.. Where do I start. I knew this was challenge, because it has been challenge within my family feud. Where my aunts and uncles, by the way who are Christians have cursed and slandered on my parents. To add to that their daughter has done the same. Where is the respect for adults, when it is adult matters why do children get involved. Anyways, back to the point, it is challenge for me. I have much deeper wounds then this harasser, however, I know because I have bottled my anger and anxiety, when I had broke down the other night, the only thing I can think of us, how to let that individual get taste of their own medicine. But after thinking and reflecting on it, is that the best possible resolution to that problem. The great solution is within God's hands. Therefore, listen to his words and the solution will be laid out to me. I know I am saved from my sins, however, not to be a hypocrite, I need to really look deeper into my heart and ask God to challenge my heart to forgive them and to be able to love them. Ultimately time will tell, but prayer for them.
Prayer:
'Our Father who is in heaven,
Hallowed be Your name.
10'Your kingdom come
Your will be done,
On earth as it is in heaven.
11Give us this day our daily bread.
12'And forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors.
13'And do not lead us into temptation, but deliver us from evil.
For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.
Matthews 6: 14 & 15 "For if you forgive others for their transgressions, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others, then your Father will not forgive your transgressions."
Application:
My life is screw up as it is. For the past 1.5 years I been dealing with personal harassment. In the beginning I really did not understand what have I done but love the person to be harassed? Yes there were a bit of boundaries that should have not been cross but did. For that I repent. However, I have manage to intimated by it initially and really thought about "how to get rid of the problem" if that took physical power to do so, or natural freak accident even better. As the harassment has died down, my thoughts of such were not a concern.
But the harassment had started again, it has been very periodically. Especially in a age where our lives are power by media, there is something called cyber harassment. I guess that is felony too. Beside the fact, I manage to ignore or do anything to provoke even more. Since I joined CG and reading a challenging book called Crazy Love, it really ponder on me that, the situation is out of my control. If this individual cannot see beyond their personal failures and responsibility in their broken relationship, no one can change that. No matter what others say, it will be here say.
Since this new journey of defining my Christian life, my first thing was my suffering and trails are very minuscule to what God has suffered through to save and wash my sins. So I should let him take control, but most of all rather then being angry.. I should forgive this individual for the actions and any abuse or harassment brought onto me. Really should love to love and take apathy on this individual.
For God has said, love our enemies as we love our neighbors. This verse goes more further that as Christian we should forgive those who have hurt and cause much pain in our life, then God will forgive my sin. To set an example of what Christian is all about. It is not about doing this specific things when people are around, but most importantly how do you spend your time with God when people are not watching and it is intimate moment with you and him.
God test us, to see if we are the true Christian or the show off Christian. To pass, I started to dug deeper into me, to find the love for this hated person and forgive for their transgression, it take time but I know God will stir my heart and give me courage to do so.
Application:
Hmmm.. Where do I start. I knew this was challenge, because it has been challenge within my family feud. Where my aunts and uncles, by the way who are Christians have cursed and slandered on my parents. To add to that their daughter has done the same. Where is the respect for adults, when it is adult matters why do children get involved. Anyways, back to the point, it is challenge for me. I have much deeper wounds then this harasser, however, I know because I have bottled my anger and anxiety, when I had broke down the other night, the only thing I can think of us, how to let that individual get taste of their own medicine. But after thinking and reflecting on it, is that the best possible resolution to that problem. The great solution is within God's hands. Therefore, listen to his words and the solution will be laid out to me. I know I am saved from my sins, however, not to be a hypocrite, I need to really look deeper into my heart and ask God to challenge my heart to forgive them and to be able to love them. Ultimately time will tell, but prayer for them.
Prayer:
'Our Father who is in heaven,
Hallowed be Your name.
10'Your kingdom come
Your will be done,
On earth as it is in heaven.
11Give us this day our daily bread.
12'And forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors.
13'And do not lead us into temptation, but deliver us from evil.
For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.
4/18/2011 - "Cleansing my heart - will power to forgive and love"
Scripture:
Matthew 5: 22 "But I say to you that everyone who is angry with his brother shall be guilty before the court; and whoever says to his brother, 'You good-for-nothing,' shall be guilty before the supreme court; and whoever says, 'You fool,' shall be guilty enough to go into the fiery hell. "
Observation:
This chapter is definitely a testimony of how God wants me to lead my life. Definitely outlines what is righteous way to lead my life. I have hard time linking my life to his words. Obviously I have shamed and I have gone against some of his guideline. What does that mean? I repent for my sins.
Also, it is test of how well I can pass this test, from the loving my enemies and mending the broken relationship with families. That is definitely difficult one, even more so to be praying for them at least. For the amount of damages and hurt they have brought, I wonder if they deserve a second my attention. But tis the season of cleansing and forgiving, as God has spoken he will not accept me unless I have mended my broken relationship. What does that mean? I need to forgive and love those who say the foolish.
It is uncertain how the relationship between my family and aunts will result to me. But I have seen in others where old broken relationship have been mended and forgive others. I so want that, I can do my diligent to mend the relationship. Pray to mend my relationship, because this will be work of gracious God. As human we tend to bottle our feeling in a bottle and afraid to open the lid. But I as the scripture and chapter say, God will judge ultimately, and come to him with brokenness and hurt and he will heal and glue those broken glass into one piece.
My personal relationship any different, in a dysfunctional relationship, God has lead to a time of reflection. I know he set aside this laws, which I shall follow and obviously I haven't but I know through this time he will lead my heart if it is truly righteous and acceptable in his glory, if not then I need to come to recognize what is priority in my life.
Application:
God put us through so many test, to test our faith and believe. We preach we are Christian but there are many who does not live according to Christian life style. As Matthew Chapter 5 is all about overcoming this test, and how to accomplish to the maximum success. He had laid black and white for us.
This chapter cannot get any easier to read and implement. But it is the implementation that is most difficult part. I even talk how much I want to improve, yet I still struggle. Definitely I can only over come successfully with help from God.
Learning to forgive and repair the broken relationship. Obviously, if others accept or not, all I can learn to do is to pray for them. Save them from their sins. Greed is so minimal to what God has prepare for us. It is provided to you today but in a second it can be taken away. I need let greed for money not tempt our family life and our relationship with God. For he know the beginning and the end to this. Best for us to do is live by his directions and work towards his righteous path.
Prayer:
Amazing God, stir my heart to forgive and love those who have brought so much pain in my family life. Putting us through financial difficulties and physical difficulties. Lord I know this is part of your plan but at times it is difficult to seek to you, and forgive me and my family for that. We know you are ultimate judge for everything. Lord I just take time to help us, our family, we have such a broken family clouded by greed. This relationship cannot be mended by our human will, we leave this up you that you will help us and guide us to the righteous direction to repair the broken relationship.
Lord I want to be ready to answer your question when I reach up to the gate to under your home. Father, help me center my life in your grace, give me to will power to put in as priority in my life. I forget so often how I am bless and abundantly provided with gift from you. I thank you for loving me and my family unconditionally.
Thank you for blessing me and family in such distress. You have shown a light upon our dark pit of our life. You have raise us from so much anger and learn to forgive, but Father continue to stir our heart, we want to be cleansed and our soul to be clean.
Give us the will power to love and forgive continuously to those who have hurt us and brought pains. The pain we suffer is no comparison to the pain you suffer on the cross. Thank you for shaving me from wretched life, and loving me for who I am.
Matthew 5: 22 "But I say to you that everyone who is angry with his brother shall be guilty before the court; and whoever says to his brother, 'You good-for-nothing,' shall be guilty before the supreme court; and whoever says, 'You fool,' shall be guilty enough to go into the fiery hell. "
Observation:
This chapter is definitely a testimony of how God wants me to lead my life. Definitely outlines what is righteous way to lead my life. I have hard time linking my life to his words. Obviously I have shamed and I have gone against some of his guideline. What does that mean? I repent for my sins.
Also, it is test of how well I can pass this test, from the loving my enemies and mending the broken relationship with families. That is definitely difficult one, even more so to be praying for them at least. For the amount of damages and hurt they have brought, I wonder if they deserve a second my attention. But tis the season of cleansing and forgiving, as God has spoken he will not accept me unless I have mended my broken relationship. What does that mean? I need to forgive and love those who say the foolish.
It is uncertain how the relationship between my family and aunts will result to me. But I have seen in others where old broken relationship have been mended and forgive others. I so want that, I can do my diligent to mend the relationship. Pray to mend my relationship, because this will be work of gracious God. As human we tend to bottle our feeling in a bottle and afraid to open the lid. But I as the scripture and chapter say, God will judge ultimately, and come to him with brokenness and hurt and he will heal and glue those broken glass into one piece.
My personal relationship any different, in a dysfunctional relationship, God has lead to a time of reflection. I know he set aside this laws, which I shall follow and obviously I haven't but I know through this time he will lead my heart if it is truly righteous and acceptable in his glory, if not then I need to come to recognize what is priority in my life.
Application:
God put us through so many test, to test our faith and believe. We preach we are Christian but there are many who does not live according to Christian life style. As Matthew Chapter 5 is all about overcoming this test, and how to accomplish to the maximum success. He had laid black and white for us.
This chapter cannot get any easier to read and implement. But it is the implementation that is most difficult part. I even talk how much I want to improve, yet I still struggle. Definitely I can only over come successfully with help from God.
Learning to forgive and repair the broken relationship. Obviously, if others accept or not, all I can learn to do is to pray for them. Save them from their sins. Greed is so minimal to what God has prepare for us. It is provided to you today but in a second it can be taken away. I need let greed for money not tempt our family life and our relationship with God. For he know the beginning and the end to this. Best for us to do is live by his directions and work towards his righteous path.
Prayer:
Amazing God, stir my heart to forgive and love those who have brought so much pain in my family life. Putting us through financial difficulties and physical difficulties. Lord I know this is part of your plan but at times it is difficult to seek to you, and forgive me and my family for that. We know you are ultimate judge for everything. Lord I just take time to help us, our family, we have such a broken family clouded by greed. This relationship cannot be mended by our human will, we leave this up you that you will help us and guide us to the righteous direction to repair the broken relationship.
Lord I want to be ready to answer your question when I reach up to the gate to under your home. Father, help me center my life in your grace, give me to will power to put in as priority in my life. I forget so often how I am bless and abundantly provided with gift from you. I thank you for loving me and my family unconditionally.
Thank you for blessing me and family in such distress. You have shown a light upon our dark pit of our life. You have raise us from so much anger and learn to forgive, but Father continue to stir our heart, we want to be cleansed and our soul to be clean.
Give us the will power to love and forgive continuously to those who have hurt us and brought pains. The pain we suffer is no comparison to the pain you suffer on the cross. Thank you for shaving me from wretched life, and loving me for who I am.
4/17/2011 - "Finding the strenght to move on fearlessly in his grace"
Scripture:
Psalm 59: 16 -17 "But as for me, I shall sing of Your strength; Yes, I shall joyfully sing of Your lovingkindness in the morning, for You have been my stronghold and a refuge in the day of my distress. O my strength, I will sing praises to You; for God is my stronghold, the God who shows me lovingkindness."
Observation:
This is even more critical as we approve good Friday and Easter. I think we forget what the purpose of Easter is. It is not about the Easter bunny or chocolate or egg hunting. But the significance of resurrection, after being crucified for my sins, which he loved me so much that a shameful individual like me God would offer his one and only son Jesus Christ to die on a cross to save me.
How often do I have that in my mind? Probably rarely its not common for me to think day to day that I am here today and my sins are washed and forgiven. The week is celebration of our Christ savior resurrection.
Celebration through praise and rather then the festive of Easter which is commercialize by the media. With that energy if we can spend a 10th of in our daily prayer to speak to him and thank him how wonderful that would be. How graciously would he be please.
Easter is the day, where I am new born because Jesus has rescued me from such dark pit of my life. He cleanse me and washed me from my struggle with sins and forgave me.
Today's service really does outline, how we should live every day as it is Easter Sunday. Not only the once in a year significant day. Felt that we lack in education of how wonder God is, and how much joy and strength he brings within us. The fortunes we have and peace we have in our is really lead by his grace but nothing alone. We take lot of that for granted, thinking we made it happen.
Would I be sitting here and typing this if I was not saved and God had no purpose in this world why he would sacrifice his only son to Crucifixion? Therefore, it is time of celebration and praise for he is raising and will be remember as amazing and everlasting God.
Application:
My week should not be centered in God only on Sundays and significant days within the calendars (e.g. Easter, Christmas and etc). Need to educate and remind myself to enjoy and praise the little gifts that God has provided. The ultimate gift of all is be save by his son's sacrifice. That doesn't only apply on Sunday but shall be remember everyday.
I am stronger and save because of his grace. I can endure because his forgiveness and grace. If I didn't have his love, forgiveness, and grace I will not be here today and sharing this wonderful ideas with you in this blog. I thank the Lord for his amazing and awesome grace in me. For loving me so much that he would sacrifice his only son. Praise the Lord and Praise for the resurrection of Christ Jesus.
Prayer:
Beautiful and Wonderful Lord, thank you, thank you for your love. I am bless with your grace and grace of your mercy that you have save my sins and forgive me and lifted me up from my wretched life. You are amazing and your love is so big it is uncontainable. God its time of our cleaning, just like your words from today service, help me cleanse my heart and soul. My heart will be stirred by your mercy and grace. Thank you so much for forgiving me and loving me for who I am. Nothing more and nothing less. You do not judge, as look into my heart, Lord heal the wounds and help me fill those wound with love.
As days go by, I am stronger and praise you for abundance in my life and my families life. We been so bless in such difficult times. Though we were face with much struggle and still we, we seek to you, as you are our provider and care giver. I leave it all in your hands to work your plans.
Father thank you for loving me, as your child, please help me to always be reminded of your sacrifice and help me that I may not lead into temptation but deliver us from the evil. Lord our Savior thank you for your amazing unconditional love and blessing, in your name I pray Amen.
Psalm 59: 16 -17 "But as for me, I shall sing of Your strength; Yes, I shall joyfully sing of Your lovingkindness in the morning, for You have been my stronghold and a refuge in the day of my distress. O my strength, I will sing praises to You; for God is my stronghold, the God who shows me lovingkindness."
Observation:
This is even more critical as we approve good Friday and Easter. I think we forget what the purpose of Easter is. It is not about the Easter bunny or chocolate or egg hunting. But the significance of resurrection, after being crucified for my sins, which he loved me so much that a shameful individual like me God would offer his one and only son Jesus Christ to die on a cross to save me.
How often do I have that in my mind? Probably rarely its not common for me to think day to day that I am here today and my sins are washed and forgiven. The week is celebration of our Christ savior resurrection.
Celebration through praise and rather then the festive of Easter which is commercialize by the media. With that energy if we can spend a 10th of in our daily prayer to speak to him and thank him how wonderful that would be. How graciously would he be please.
Easter is the day, where I am new born because Jesus has rescued me from such dark pit of my life. He cleanse me and washed me from my struggle with sins and forgave me.
Today's service really does outline, how we should live every day as it is Easter Sunday. Not only the once in a year significant day. Felt that we lack in education of how wonder God is, and how much joy and strength he brings within us. The fortunes we have and peace we have in our is really lead by his grace but nothing alone. We take lot of that for granted, thinking we made it happen.
Would I be sitting here and typing this if I was not saved and God had no purpose in this world why he would sacrifice his only son to Crucifixion? Therefore, it is time of celebration and praise for he is raising and will be remember as amazing and everlasting God.
Application:
My week should not be centered in God only on Sundays and significant days within the calendars (e.g. Easter, Christmas and etc). Need to educate and remind myself to enjoy and praise the little gifts that God has provided. The ultimate gift of all is be save by his son's sacrifice. That doesn't only apply on Sunday but shall be remember everyday.
I am stronger and save because of his grace. I can endure because his forgiveness and grace. If I didn't have his love, forgiveness, and grace I will not be here today and sharing this wonderful ideas with you in this blog. I thank the Lord for his amazing and awesome grace in me. For loving me so much that he would sacrifice his only son. Praise the Lord and Praise for the resurrection of Christ Jesus.
Prayer:
Beautiful and Wonderful Lord, thank you, thank you for your love. I am bless with your grace and grace of your mercy that you have save my sins and forgive me and lifted me up from my wretched life. You are amazing and your love is so big it is uncontainable. God its time of our cleaning, just like your words from today service, help me cleanse my heart and soul. My heart will be stirred by your mercy and grace. Thank you so much for forgiving me and loving me for who I am. Nothing more and nothing less. You do not judge, as look into my heart, Lord heal the wounds and help me fill those wound with love.
As days go by, I am stronger and praise you for abundance in my life and my families life. We been so bless in such difficult times. Though we were face with much struggle and still we, we seek to you, as you are our provider and care giver. I leave it all in your hands to work your plans.
Father thank you for loving me, as your child, please help me to always be reminded of your sacrifice and help me that I may not lead into temptation but deliver us from the evil. Lord our Savior thank you for your amazing unconditional love and blessing, in your name I pray Amen.
4/16/2011 - "Righteousness of me"
Scripture:
Psalm 11: 7 "For the LORD is righteous, He loves righteousness; The upright will behold His Face."
Observation:
What is right and amazing. I need to really work on find peace within me. Though through his scripture and words I seek peace. I need to find peace within me to be able to put everything in action. From forgiveness, loving and being righteous. If I don't have peace and forgive myself what purpose is there for me to forgive others when I can't forgive myself.
God has forsaken me and forgave my sins, I shall not dwell on the thought that I am nothing less. He love me to save me. Therefore, I should love me and forgive myself.
Before moving onto to seeking to forgive and loving the one's who have brought pain. God see and test us all to see how righteous we are. Not being able to forgive myself before anyone else is failing that test.
Application:
Love myself, forgive myself. This flesh which God has given is temple of God I was created in his image. I need to find peace within me, love me, forgive and accept in order to be do God righteousness.
I shall not fail his test, but I should complete his test. His answers are around me daily.
Prayer:
Father God, thank you for today and thank you for pouring out your love to me. Father you are so amazing and big God. You are the creator and healer of this world which you provided so much blessing with. Father thank you for blessing me and my family through all the struggles and pain. We thank you for the abundances, we are so fortunate to have each other and you.
Father, help me to stir my heart to love myself, you have sacrifice your Son to wash my sins. Help to to accept that I am more than just a me. My purpose here in this place is to do your will. You are the only person who love me and have chosen for who I am.
Lord, thank you and please help me to prioritize my life with you in my center of my life. Let me life and work I do be pleasing and God centered. I love you, love you...
You are amazing and humble I praise you will continue to stir my heart and soul. In your name I pray Amen!
Psalm 11: 7 "For the LORD is righteous, He loves righteousness; The upright will behold His Face."
Observation:
What is right and amazing. I need to really work on find peace within me. Though through his scripture and words I seek peace. I need to find peace within me to be able to put everything in action. From forgiveness, loving and being righteous. If I don't have peace and forgive myself what purpose is there for me to forgive others when I can't forgive myself.
God has forsaken me and forgave my sins, I shall not dwell on the thought that I am nothing less. He love me to save me. Therefore, I should love me and forgive myself.
Before moving onto to seeking to forgive and loving the one's who have brought pain. God see and test us all to see how righteous we are. Not being able to forgive myself before anyone else is failing that test.
Application:
Love myself, forgive myself. This flesh which God has given is temple of God I was created in his image. I need to find peace within me, love me, forgive and accept in order to be do God righteousness.
I shall not fail his test, but I should complete his test. His answers are around me daily.
Prayer:
Father God, thank you for today and thank you for pouring out your love to me. Father you are so amazing and big God. You are the creator and healer of this world which you provided so much blessing with. Father thank you for blessing me and my family through all the struggles and pain. We thank you for the abundances, we are so fortunate to have each other and you.
Father, help me to stir my heart to love myself, you have sacrifice your Son to wash my sins. Help to to accept that I am more than just a me. My purpose here in this place is to do your will. You are the only person who love me and have chosen for who I am.
Lord, thank you and please help me to prioritize my life with you in my center of my life. Let me life and work I do be pleasing and God centered. I love you, love you...
You are amazing and humble I praise you will continue to stir my heart and soul. In your name I pray Amen!
4/15/2011 - "Who are you living your life to please"
Scripture:
Matthew 2: 13 "Now when they had gone, behold, an angel of the Lord *appeared to Joseph in a dream and said, "Get up! Take the Child and His mother and flee to Egypt, and remain there until I tell you for Herod is going to search for the Child to destroy Him.""
Observation:
Well guess two things, how world cannot see why Christ has come to this earth, the purpose of this existence? Even in Matthew and other chapters of Bible, there seem to be so many who want to destroy and erase the existence of Christ? Then we would not be an existence if Christ did not come to rescues us from our dept of sins. Just like when people around envy or are jealous of what I may have, they lean their emotion on depicting unreal fiction in their mind and believe that is the case. Maybe that is to ease their pains, for example I use my family as example a lot but I honestly think that is what is happening. When surrounding start to lose interest in your own self, or there is additional competition then their goal is to get rid of the competition or do something about it. My aunts and cousin has chosen to slander, cheat and lie. Guess kind of like what King Herod wanted to get rid of existence of Christ, not knowing the reason he had this power and existed was cause God had purpose. But obviously that was distorted but some fictional imagination and had to kill and slaughter innocent babies to fill some fulfilment. I wonder if it was worth it?
Secondly, how faithful is Joseph, great faithful servant. Though Jesus was not biologically fathered by Joseph, for him to be so faithful servant to listen to Lord's angel and follow their callings. I have trouble following direction from my managers sometimes at work, we sometimes don't see an eye to an eye so we would discuss about it. But for Joseph to not discuss but faithfully listen and follow through. If I cannot follow through in many of day to day task, and in a day where I forget to prioritize God, how can I listen to his callings, and how faithful of servant am I then?
Application:
This chapter continue to question how faithful and trustworthy in God I am. Like Joseph would I put and lay everything down, when God calls to go do his will? I need to motivate myself in the tough times, and when things go bad, relationship get shatter it's purpose of God's plan, I shall not be angered or confused by the situation. Rather rejoice and embrace what will be laid out for me to tackle.
Again, life is too short, and meaning it's too short to trying to accomplish my own goals and walk in the direction which God has given. Anything I accomplish and do is really the purpose of God. So simply put, be fearless and let God take the driver seat and I enjoy the ride.
Prayer:
Oh Father, you are such an awesome God. So big God! You are the breeze I feel and the internal voice I hear. You exists all around me. I thank you for walking with me today, and providing me protection and much blessing. Thank you for allowing me to share my blessings. Father thank you for loving me and my family, and walking through the tiny steps of stairs as we learn to forgive and heal in difficult times. You have stirred our hearts and continue to mold our heart to be clean and loving.
Father, help me to stir my ears to listen to your voice. As I go on with day to day, I forget who my priority is, my work or anything I do should be fulfilment in your eyes. Anything and everything is provided by you and to be executed in your grace. Lord you are magnificent, thank you for sacrificing your one and only son to wash my sins and forgiving my sin. You are the only God who accepts me for who I am, who doesn't define your measurement your love, love me regardless. Father help me to be selfless, I may use the mouth and flesh to share the love and blessing you have abundantly bless me and my family with.
Thank you again for all your grace and forgiveness. In your amazing name we praise Amen!
Matthew 2: 13 "Now when they had gone, behold, an angel of the Lord *appeared to Joseph in a dream and said, "Get up! Take the Child and His mother and flee to Egypt, and remain there until I tell you for Herod is going to search for the Child to destroy Him.""
Observation:
Well guess two things, how world cannot see why Christ has come to this earth, the purpose of this existence? Even in Matthew and other chapters of Bible, there seem to be so many who want to destroy and erase the existence of Christ? Then we would not be an existence if Christ did not come to rescues us from our dept of sins. Just like when people around envy or are jealous of what I may have, they lean their emotion on depicting unreal fiction in their mind and believe that is the case. Maybe that is to ease their pains, for example I use my family as example a lot but I honestly think that is what is happening. When surrounding start to lose interest in your own self, or there is additional competition then their goal is to get rid of the competition or do something about it. My aunts and cousin has chosen to slander, cheat and lie. Guess kind of like what King Herod wanted to get rid of existence of Christ, not knowing the reason he had this power and existed was cause God had purpose. But obviously that was distorted but some fictional imagination and had to kill and slaughter innocent babies to fill some fulfilment. I wonder if it was worth it?
Secondly, how faithful is Joseph, great faithful servant. Though Jesus was not biologically fathered by Joseph, for him to be so faithful servant to listen to Lord's angel and follow their callings. I have trouble following direction from my managers sometimes at work, we sometimes don't see an eye to an eye so we would discuss about it. But for Joseph to not discuss but faithfully listen and follow through. If I cannot follow through in many of day to day task, and in a day where I forget to prioritize God, how can I listen to his callings, and how faithful of servant am I then?
Application:
This chapter continue to question how faithful and trustworthy in God I am. Like Joseph would I put and lay everything down, when God calls to go do his will? I need to motivate myself in the tough times, and when things go bad, relationship get shatter it's purpose of God's plan, I shall not be angered or confused by the situation. Rather rejoice and embrace what will be laid out for me to tackle.
Again, life is too short, and meaning it's too short to trying to accomplish my own goals and walk in the direction which God has given. Anything I accomplish and do is really the purpose of God. So simply put, be fearless and let God take the driver seat and I enjoy the ride.
Prayer:
Oh Father, you are such an awesome God. So big God! You are the breeze I feel and the internal voice I hear. You exists all around me. I thank you for walking with me today, and providing me protection and much blessing. Thank you for allowing me to share my blessings. Father thank you for loving me and my family, and walking through the tiny steps of stairs as we learn to forgive and heal in difficult times. You have stirred our hearts and continue to mold our heart to be clean and loving.
Father, help me to stir my ears to listen to your voice. As I go on with day to day, I forget who my priority is, my work or anything I do should be fulfilment in your eyes. Anything and everything is provided by you and to be executed in your grace. Lord you are magnificent, thank you for sacrificing your one and only son to wash my sins and forgiving my sin. You are the only God who accepts me for who I am, who doesn't define your measurement your love, love me regardless. Father help me to be selfless, I may use the mouth and flesh to share the love and blessing you have abundantly bless me and my family with.
Thank you again for all your grace and forgiveness. In your amazing name we praise Amen!
4/14/2011 - "How fearless are you when it comes to God's Plan for us?"
Scripture:
Matthew 1: 20 & 21 "But when he had considered this, behold, an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream, saying, "Joseph, son of David, do not be afraid to take Mary as your wife; for the Child who has been conceived in her is of the Holy Spirit. She will bear a Son; and you shall call His name Jesus, for He will save His people from their sins."
Observation:
When I read this versus, first thing is how often do we every listen to anyone except our instincts. That show how individualized we are. We can take advises from friends and family but ultimate decision is made from me.
Joseph did not question or comment, he woke up after the dream and he has followed what was told and did as told.
I am selfish, especially after this. My conscious is telling me to do this yet I have to plan and do my pros and con list before I made my final decision. Now I wonder if that conscious is God speaking to me and have I been avoiding that?
The answers are lay in foot step yet, I manage to make a large issue out of it then it is. When it would have been the best to list to what was speaking to me and follow through.
Guess that is why I struggle with my faith and walk, I am not so self critical that I forget what God is telling me.
Application:
God made me the way I am, need to be less self critical and listen and follow through what my heart is telling me. When I go against his plan, I will see more bumps, but when I go with his plan, it will be glorious though there will be bumps, but the bumps will be exciting.
Life cannot be about pros and con lists, it should be exciting. Exciting for God and what he has plan for us. Stop fear the unknown as God will not lead to pit of darkness but all his plans are to be close and closer on our way to be with God.
Prayer:
Father, Lord of all open my heart to listen closely for your calling. I fear the unknown, uncertainty. But with you there is no unknown and uncertainty. You are amazing and awesome, your plans are the ultimate plans. Help me to be fearless to listen and follow through your callings. As faithful servant, I shall not fear but leave my life on your palm of hand that you will bring glory and bring so much exciting God centered adventures.
Lord than you for the already abundant blessing and your continuous unconditional love for me and my family. Protect us and keep us safe. As children of God, lead us not into temptation but deliver us from the evil.
Father, help me to focus my priority to listen to your calling and mold me to be better faithful servant of you. In your name I pray Amen!
Matthew 1: 20 & 21 "But when he had considered this, behold, an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream, saying, "Joseph, son of David, do not be afraid to take Mary as your wife; for the Child who has been conceived in her is of the Holy Spirit. She will bear a Son; and you shall call His name Jesus, for He will save His people from their sins."
Observation:
When I read this versus, first thing is how often do we every listen to anyone except our instincts. That show how individualized we are. We can take advises from friends and family but ultimate decision is made from me.
Joseph did not question or comment, he woke up after the dream and he has followed what was told and did as told.
I am selfish, especially after this. My conscious is telling me to do this yet I have to plan and do my pros and con list before I made my final decision. Now I wonder if that conscious is God speaking to me and have I been avoiding that?
The answers are lay in foot step yet, I manage to make a large issue out of it then it is. When it would have been the best to list to what was speaking to me and follow through.
Guess that is why I struggle with my faith and walk, I am not so self critical that I forget what God is telling me.
Application:
God made me the way I am, need to be less self critical and listen and follow through what my heart is telling me. When I go against his plan, I will see more bumps, but when I go with his plan, it will be glorious though there will be bumps, but the bumps will be exciting.
Life cannot be about pros and con lists, it should be exciting. Exciting for God and what he has plan for us. Stop fear the unknown as God will not lead to pit of darkness but all his plans are to be close and closer on our way to be with God.
Prayer:
Father, Lord of all open my heart to listen closely for your calling. I fear the unknown, uncertainty. But with you there is no unknown and uncertainty. You are amazing and awesome, your plans are the ultimate plans. Help me to be fearless to listen and follow through your callings. As faithful servant, I shall not fear but leave my life on your palm of hand that you will bring glory and bring so much exciting God centered adventures.
Lord than you for the already abundant blessing and your continuous unconditional love for me and my family. Protect us and keep us safe. As children of God, lead us not into temptation but deliver us from the evil.
Father, help me to focus my priority to listen to your calling and mold me to be better faithful servant of you. In your name I pray Amen!
4/13/2011 - "Where did you place God Today?"
Scripture:
2 Corinthians 13: 5 "Test yourself to see if you are in the faith; examine yourself! Or do you not recognize this about yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you -- unless indeed you fail the test?"
Observation:
Very straight forward to put it out there. I think I forget a lot of times in the day, Christ is with me, giving me this big bubble space of love, blessing and protection you name it, it is all within the bubble. But yet I reluctant to remember that as I move on with day to day. Though when I read my bible and Sunday comes, I question is my faith strong enough? Maybe I need to set back and really take in and acknowledge it.
For Christ is in me, I know I am already better position then anyone else. Since this journey I have taken I can see some small very minor changes in me. I know that just because people can site off the versus in Bible, doesn't me they have stronger faith. Though I am not at that stage, which I wish and hope to be some day, I know my faith is stronger then yesterday and last week and tomorrow it will be stronger then today.
Christ is stirred my heart and way to live day to day in his glory. Everything we have and are around us is work of God. We need to preserve and respect that. So I say this to you Margaret! Respect God and Listen to God through the air breeze he gives, through the circumstances he present to you.
Application:
I am not sure how to test my faith, however, all I can say is I know my faith is growing daily. It is a bit difficult to put into word but I know it is. I need to still continue to listen and meditate on his word, for his word is only way to learn.
Putting my faith should be priority, just like wanting to do well at work and excel at work, be the best, I need to keep that attitude with my faith and walk with God. If my faith and Walk with God fails then I have failed this life. It is pointless to work for it. I have to work in the direction and steps which God approved and is God centered.
Prayer:
Heavenly Father, I love your heart, I love your words, I love your grace. Thank you for your unconditional love and blessing for my family and me. We have been so blessed despite all the troubles my parents have face and we have been affected.
Father your love so grand, you are so big, help me understand and accept your grand plans and teachings you give. Open my heart and mind and soul to you, help me to put you as my priority. All the blessing didn't happen because of myself effort but because you have blessed me with.
You are magnificent, you love me for who I am. Father thank you for pouring out so much love for me that sometimes it is overwhelming but good overwhelming. Continue to love me. Lord I am sinner who you have loved that you have sacrificed your one and only Son to wash my shames. I am here today in the flesh you provide because you have save me.
Father, thank you! Help lead me not into temptation but deliver me from the evil. Lord help me to be ready and strong to fight battle to be wiser servant of you Lord. Thank you for your blessing and love in your name I pray Amen!
2 Corinthians 13: 5 "Test yourself to see if you are in the faith; examine yourself! Or do you not recognize this about yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you -- unless indeed you fail the test?"
Observation:
Very straight forward to put it out there. I think I forget a lot of times in the day, Christ is with me, giving me this big bubble space of love, blessing and protection you name it, it is all within the bubble. But yet I reluctant to remember that as I move on with day to day. Though when I read my bible and Sunday comes, I question is my faith strong enough? Maybe I need to set back and really take in and acknowledge it.
For Christ is in me, I know I am already better position then anyone else. Since this journey I have taken I can see some small very minor changes in me. I know that just because people can site off the versus in Bible, doesn't me they have stronger faith. Though I am not at that stage, which I wish and hope to be some day, I know my faith is stronger then yesterday and last week and tomorrow it will be stronger then today.
Christ is stirred my heart and way to live day to day in his glory. Everything we have and are around us is work of God. We need to preserve and respect that. So I say this to you Margaret! Respect God and Listen to God through the air breeze he gives, through the circumstances he present to you.
Application:
I am not sure how to test my faith, however, all I can say is I know my faith is growing daily. It is a bit difficult to put into word but I know it is. I need to still continue to listen and meditate on his word, for his word is only way to learn.
Putting my faith should be priority, just like wanting to do well at work and excel at work, be the best, I need to keep that attitude with my faith and walk with God. If my faith and Walk with God fails then I have failed this life. It is pointless to work for it. I have to work in the direction and steps which God approved and is God centered.
Prayer:
Heavenly Father, I love your heart, I love your words, I love your grace. Thank you for your unconditional love and blessing for my family and me. We have been so blessed despite all the troubles my parents have face and we have been affected.
Father your love so grand, you are so big, help me understand and accept your grand plans and teachings you give. Open my heart and mind and soul to you, help me to put you as my priority. All the blessing didn't happen because of myself effort but because you have blessed me with.
You are magnificent, you love me for who I am. Father thank you for pouring out so much love for me that sometimes it is overwhelming but good overwhelming. Continue to love me. Lord I am sinner who you have loved that you have sacrificed your one and only Son to wash my shames. I am here today in the flesh you provide because you have save me.
Father, thank you! Help lead me not into temptation but deliver me from the evil. Lord help me to be ready and strong to fight battle to be wiser servant of you Lord. Thank you for your blessing and love in your name I pray Amen!
4/12/2011 - "Repent Repent, Be saved let the LORD lead your life"
Scripture:
2 Corinthian 12: 9,10 "And He has said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness. "Mostly gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weakness, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me." Therefore I am well content with weakness, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong."
20 & 21 "For I am afraid that perhaps when I come I may find you to be not what I wish and may be found by you to be not what you wish that perhaps there will be strife, jealousy, angry tempers, disputes, slanders, gossip, arrogance, disturbances; I am afraid that when I come again my God may humiliate me before you, and I may mourn over many of those who have sinned in the past and not repented of the impurity, immorality and sensuality which they have practiced."
Observation:
I think Paul is telling us without repenting our sins, which God knows all about, any words that we may speak in context of God is lies and lies. God made us within his vision, he gave us this feelings and emotions, so that through this we learn to cope and find comfort in God to receive guidance in such that we may live more God centered life. That's how much God want us to seek him.
I have the same worries that when THE DAY approaches, I will not be ready, because I have not repented enough and my sins still remain, I will not be ready. God can see through us and we cannot hide anything from him. He will spit us out rotten egg.
Last few days, I just realized its better to keep my mouth shut and not participate with slanders and gossips. But just speak of my own mistakes I have done and how I am coping to change those mistakes. I do not win by aggravating others by participating, that is what Satan wants me to do. Like Paul who is speaking to his people for what he fears, don't dwell on the anger and negativity this world brings, but work to mold myself into a better person from my mistakes and repenting my sins.
Application:
Daily meditation of God's word and prayers are extremely critical. Its my very private therapy session, God does not judge but will love me for who I am. He has carried the cross to wash my shame and sins. Therefore this is the time to repent without fear.
My day is filled with sins, sins that I am not aware of. But we are not perfect, we are no where perfect, but we can work to live more proper and God center life, live my life solely for God, to do his will. But to be his servant I need to repent and leave my life in God's hand with confidence. Not worry how next day will be, or how efficient tomorrow will be. God's plan is the ultimate plan, to fulfil that I need to accept all the trials and struggles in my life, and repent the sins. Through acceptance, my views of what I speak and my actions should slowly be more what God may have planned for me. Letting down the fire of anger through prayer, and repent my impurity through prayer.
Prayer:
Oh Heavenly Father, amazing God, thank you for loving me for who I am. I am so impure and imperfect, I have so many weakness and prone to fail. But you choose to pour out love onto me and bless me continuously. Lord you are so big and I am so small, but I am in a society, where it is hard to acknowledge that, help me to focus how big you are. Your plans for me that I may be faithful servant to fulfil your plans and execute in the direction you plan. I will stumble and fail but I know you will be next to me helping to stand when I fall and continue the journey.
Father you love is so amazing. You are healing me and my family through much of struggles. Continue to mold our heart and cleanse our heart. Though there is no one who may love me for who I am but I know you will always be there for my weakness and strength, you will love me without any reasons. Lord Father, thank you for sacrificing your Son Jesus to carry that heavy cross to take away my shame and sins.
God help me to be faithful servant, help me to live up to your expectation within the situation you have given me. My family and I are children of God, please help that you will not lead us into temptation and deliver us from the evil. Forgive us for our imperfections and make us a stronger servant through our weakness and mistakes. Thank you for all your love and grace. In your name I pray, Amen!
2 Corinthian 12: 9,10 "And He has said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness. "Mostly gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weakness, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me." Therefore I am well content with weakness, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong."
20 & 21 "For I am afraid that perhaps when I come I may find you to be not what I wish and may be found by you to be not what you wish that perhaps there will be strife, jealousy, angry tempers, disputes, slanders, gossip, arrogance, disturbances; I am afraid that when I come again my God may humiliate me before you, and I may mourn over many of those who have sinned in the past and not repented of the impurity, immorality and sensuality which they have practiced."
Observation:
I think Paul is telling us without repenting our sins, which God knows all about, any words that we may speak in context of God is lies and lies. God made us within his vision, he gave us this feelings and emotions, so that through this we learn to cope and find comfort in God to receive guidance in such that we may live more God centered life. That's how much God want us to seek him.
I have the same worries that when THE DAY approaches, I will not be ready, because I have not repented enough and my sins still remain, I will not be ready. God can see through us and we cannot hide anything from him. He will spit us out rotten egg.
Last few days, I just realized its better to keep my mouth shut and not participate with slanders and gossips. But just speak of my own mistakes I have done and how I am coping to change those mistakes. I do not win by aggravating others by participating, that is what Satan wants me to do. Like Paul who is speaking to his people for what he fears, don't dwell on the anger and negativity this world brings, but work to mold myself into a better person from my mistakes and repenting my sins.
Application:
Daily meditation of God's word and prayers are extremely critical. Its my very private therapy session, God does not judge but will love me for who I am. He has carried the cross to wash my shame and sins. Therefore this is the time to repent without fear.
My day is filled with sins, sins that I am not aware of. But we are not perfect, we are no where perfect, but we can work to live more proper and God center life, live my life solely for God, to do his will. But to be his servant I need to repent and leave my life in God's hand with confidence. Not worry how next day will be, or how efficient tomorrow will be. God's plan is the ultimate plan, to fulfil that I need to accept all the trials and struggles in my life, and repent the sins. Through acceptance, my views of what I speak and my actions should slowly be more what God may have planned for me. Letting down the fire of anger through prayer, and repent my impurity through prayer.
Prayer:
Oh Heavenly Father, amazing God, thank you for loving me for who I am. I am so impure and imperfect, I have so many weakness and prone to fail. But you choose to pour out love onto me and bless me continuously. Lord you are so big and I am so small, but I am in a society, where it is hard to acknowledge that, help me to focus how big you are. Your plans for me that I may be faithful servant to fulfil your plans and execute in the direction you plan. I will stumble and fail but I know you will be next to me helping to stand when I fall and continue the journey.
Father you love is so amazing. You are healing me and my family through much of struggles. Continue to mold our heart and cleanse our heart. Though there is no one who may love me for who I am but I know you will always be there for my weakness and strength, you will love me without any reasons. Lord Father, thank you for sacrificing your Son Jesus to carry that heavy cross to take away my shame and sins.
God help me to be faithful servant, help me to live up to your expectation within the situation you have given me. My family and I are children of God, please help that you will not lead us into temptation and deliver us from the evil. Forgive us for our imperfections and make us a stronger servant through our weakness and mistakes. Thank you for all your love and grace. In your name I pray, Amen!
4/11/2011 - "What is your answer to the LORD question to enter through gate of Heaven?"
Scripture:
2 Corinthians 11: 13 - 15 "For such men are false apostles, deceitful workers, disguising themselves as apostles of Christ. No wonder, for even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light. Therefore it is not surprising if his servants also disguise themselves as servants of righteousness, whose end will be according to their deeds."
Observation:
WOW, where do I start. Even just my experience today, makes me wonder if I am fonny Christian. If many of us live in disguise? We let our comfort effect us before our heart. We plan today and tomorrow. We plan so that we may not fail, but really do we let God control our faith? Many of us think we plan our own destiny and we don't let God take control. Yet we share gospel and words of God. How is that really trusting God and his plan for us tomorrow. I could die after I write this blog or on my way drive home. When I reach that gate to enter his house, how would we answer to his questions? What have you done in the flesh which God has given? We cannot be so called seasonal Christian, Christian when I want to be because I and much for confident and comfortable about today then yesterday.
I wonder, what my answer to him will be, all I can imagine is cry and whip in his feet. Will be just overwhelmed to be even be in presence of him. Honestly, I don't think I deserve to be where I am, and would ask for forgiveness. Thank him for his everlasting love onto me.
But, today after long patience, I couldn't handle the frustration and the harassment that I had step into the same dark hole like the harasser. I intention was to put some sense that we can end it. As the discussion got heated, and with my minimal exchange of txt between us, I tried to think if God would approved of what I am writing and responding. But I might have my emotions take priority in the participation versus thinking WWJD? Though I tried to be polite and politically correct, the txt I was receiving did not help. Continue to pull me into non God center responses. Is this satan stirring and knowing my struggle and weakness work against God?
I been writing in my Life Journal how I should thank the Lord for the many blessings he has given and gifts he provided. I should live in the direction which God has planned for me. Today has set me 20 footstep back from where I was working towards.
Its disappointing and upsetting day knowing I have just been hypocrite to my own statements for past few weeks. I am frustrated and angry at myself for allowing myself to stoop that low. Even though the righteous path guided was visible to me by God, I have let my emotions take over me.
Application:
I know God know me inside and out, more then anyone else. He loves me continuously despite my mistakes and set backs. But the the scripture is haunting me, am I really living the God orientated life? Speak of God gloriously and think of him everyday and let God be my priority in my life? Or have I become of those lukewarm Christan who speak when I feel comfortable.
I need to recenter my heart and focus where God want me to go. Stop fearing how I would be judge and hesitant of God will think. If I have heart and desire to do his will, then it is coming from him, he will be my biggest fan. He will be aside me through the steps.
I need to work to mold my heart and listen to God's calling. Need to accept that God has forgiven me for my sins, he wants me to blossom rather than being timid of growing. Stop being false Christian or be a luck warm Christian as such does not exist. Give my heart to God and rest my life in his hand. Not let the World or anyone control my destiny but let God control my destiny, as it will be humbling journey.
Prayer:
Oh Father, hear my cries. My cries of anger and frustration. Thank you for listening and touching my heart to heal. There are so many negativity in this world, Father through this negative help me that I would not lose my focus. My heart and mind will still walk in the direction in God center path. We are tempted as you have seen, and we fall into that temptation but Father I ask for your forgiveness for mistakes and you will help me pull from the dark pit and bring me back to light.
Blessed Father, thank you for continuously pouring love onto me and my family. Through all the family feud and struggles financially still we have been so blessed and thank you for your protection. You have kept our heart true, and please continue to heal our families heart and be able to forgive and love the one who have betrayed us.
Thank you Father for your amazing grace and love, through the darkness of life, you always had a lamp to lead me to the light. You sacrifice your one and only son to wash my sins, Lord help me to keep myself clean and pure. Though I still struggle through, if it is your deeds and lesson help me to stay focus and accomplish successfully. I leave in your hand that you will lead me to righteous path.
Heavenly Father, I thank you for today, despite the my mistakes. Thank you for your pouring love. Thank you for loving me and continue to love me and my family, as we are children of God, deliver us from the evil and lead us not into temptation, in your name I pray Amen!
2 Corinthians 11: 13 - 15 "For such men are false apostles, deceitful workers, disguising themselves as apostles of Christ. No wonder, for even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light. Therefore it is not surprising if his servants also disguise themselves as servants of righteousness, whose end will be according to their deeds."
Observation:
WOW, where do I start. Even just my experience today, makes me wonder if I am fonny Christian. If many of us live in disguise? We let our comfort effect us before our heart. We plan today and tomorrow. We plan so that we may not fail, but really do we let God control our faith? Many of us think we plan our own destiny and we don't let God take control. Yet we share gospel and words of God. How is that really trusting God and his plan for us tomorrow. I could die after I write this blog or on my way drive home. When I reach that gate to enter his house, how would we answer to his questions? What have you done in the flesh which God has given? We cannot be so called seasonal Christian, Christian when I want to be because I and much for confident and comfortable about today then yesterday.
I wonder, what my answer to him will be, all I can imagine is cry and whip in his feet. Will be just overwhelmed to be even be in presence of him. Honestly, I don't think I deserve to be where I am, and would ask for forgiveness. Thank him for his everlasting love onto me.
But, today after long patience, I couldn't handle the frustration and the harassment that I had step into the same dark hole like the harasser. I intention was to put some sense that we can end it. As the discussion got heated, and with my minimal exchange of txt between us, I tried to think if God would approved of what I am writing and responding. But I might have my emotions take priority in the participation versus thinking WWJD? Though I tried to be polite and politically correct, the txt I was receiving did not help. Continue to pull me into non God center responses. Is this satan stirring and knowing my struggle and weakness work against God?
I been writing in my Life Journal how I should thank the Lord for the many blessings he has given and gifts he provided. I should live in the direction which God has planned for me. Today has set me 20 footstep back from where I was working towards.
Its disappointing and upsetting day knowing I have just been hypocrite to my own statements for past few weeks. I am frustrated and angry at myself for allowing myself to stoop that low. Even though the righteous path guided was visible to me by God, I have let my emotions take over me.
Application:
I know God know me inside and out, more then anyone else. He loves me continuously despite my mistakes and set backs. But the the scripture is haunting me, am I really living the God orientated life? Speak of God gloriously and think of him everyday and let God be my priority in my life? Or have I become of those lukewarm Christan who speak when I feel comfortable.
I need to recenter my heart and focus where God want me to go. Stop fearing how I would be judge and hesitant of God will think. If I have heart and desire to do his will, then it is coming from him, he will be my biggest fan. He will be aside me through the steps.
I need to work to mold my heart and listen to God's calling. Need to accept that God has forgiven me for my sins, he wants me to blossom rather than being timid of growing. Stop being false Christian or be a luck warm Christian as such does not exist. Give my heart to God and rest my life in his hand. Not let the World or anyone control my destiny but let God control my destiny, as it will be humbling journey.
Prayer:
Oh Father, hear my cries. My cries of anger and frustration. Thank you for listening and touching my heart to heal. There are so many negativity in this world, Father through this negative help me that I would not lose my focus. My heart and mind will still walk in the direction in God center path. We are tempted as you have seen, and we fall into that temptation but Father I ask for your forgiveness for mistakes and you will help me pull from the dark pit and bring me back to light.
Blessed Father, thank you for continuously pouring love onto me and my family. Through all the family feud and struggles financially still we have been so blessed and thank you for your protection. You have kept our heart true, and please continue to heal our families heart and be able to forgive and love the one who have betrayed us.
Thank you Father for your amazing grace and love, through the darkness of life, you always had a lamp to lead me to the light. You sacrifice your one and only son to wash my sins, Lord help me to keep myself clean and pure. Though I still struggle through, if it is your deeds and lesson help me to stay focus and accomplish successfully. I leave in your hand that you will lead me to righteous path.
Heavenly Father, I thank you for today, despite the my mistakes. Thank you for your pouring love. Thank you for loving me and continue to love me and my family, as we are children of God, deliver us from the evil and lead us not into temptation, in your name I pray Amen!
4/10/2011 - "Why do we over emphaize ourself to be fit in"
Scripture:
2 Corinthians 10: 13 & 17 "But we will not boast beyond our measure, but within the measure of the sphere which God apportioned to us as a measure, to reach even as far as you. 17: But HE WHO BOASTS IS TO BOAST IN THE LORD."
Observation:
When we are put into a new environment, we get very timid, and of course we have million things running in our head as to how to get accepted. Even within church, though it should be the friendliest and unbiased place for people to unite, it is not all that the case. I see that church can get more clinging then any other environment. As new comer, I wonder what it must feel like wanting to be accepted and notice.
For example, our typical conversation when meeting new people evolve from where we are from to what we do. Within the discussed, do we over exaggerate or agree on something that you are not totally passionate about because the crowd you want to be accepted is in consensus of it? Do we constrict some of the truth with lies?
I think we all been in that position once in our life, where we might say something that is semi truth to it to ease the relationship. Or even like my experiences with the family back in Oregon, my aunts (Jeong & Yom) and her daughter (Amy) will go into small church group meetings and the discussion would be how my parents has steal and coned them. Even blaming their previous responsibilities were not successful because of my parents. Now the question is how much of it is truth to it? Would this conversations be accepted by God?
Do we wrap our self in this pretty gift paper so that God will like us for what we are? I believe not, God wants us to speak in his grace. Don't extract the truth into something over the top discussion. He wants us to speak from our heart, and know how to judge what is the righteous ways to boast versus maybe not saying anything is the best way to respect yourself and right ways which God has planned for you.
The ways you boast and get the acceptance or embed the image amongst the peers that you want, how good does that feel knowing that God does not approve a bit of your ways of boasting? We should only contain what the truth is, and versus speaking of others, think and boast of how great God is in our life, what he has blessed us with.
Application:
Though I am trying to change, it is definitely tough challenge to keep my head and heart straight to God everyday and every minute. Like today's sermon we do get lead into temptation, exaggerating or over emphasizing a small fact about me to others thinking I may get accepted or liked.
I do feel afterwards, because it is partially truth of me. I know and been challenge to keep my mouth in silences if I rather not over emphasize it. Rather be truth what little that might be and God will plan out the next step.
My daily discussion should be God emphasis not "Margaret" emphasis. I need to try to speak in who I am today or is working to be despite of all the problems because of God. This will measure the truth and may lead to more God oriented day to day.
Prayer:
Our Father, Heavenly Father, thank you for your blessing today and pouring out your love for me and my family. Thank you for providing so much blessing and healing in me and my family. LORD we continue to ask for your guidance to forgive and love those who have betrayed us, please lead us not into temptation. I pray you would open our heart and soul to seek you and prioritize you in our life, as you are the utmost precious thing in our life. Help us that the words come out of our mouth will be humble and in your righteous path.
Thank you for dying on a cross to save me and wash my sins away. Father may you use my hands and mouth and feet for your great plans. That I will not contaminate the flesh you have given with lies and sins, but I would seek to you for your guidance to walk the path you have planned for me.
Thank you for surrounding your Holiness around me and my family, and keeping us save and protected throughout where we live.
LORD pray you will continue to mold my heart and soul to be cleanse and find the heart to forgive and love again. In your gracious name I pray AMEN!
2 Corinthians 10: 13 & 17 "But we will not boast beyond our measure, but within the measure of the sphere which God apportioned to us as a measure, to reach even as far as you. 17: But HE WHO BOASTS IS TO BOAST IN THE LORD."
Observation:
When we are put into a new environment, we get very timid, and of course we have million things running in our head as to how to get accepted. Even within church, though it should be the friendliest and unbiased place for people to unite, it is not all that the case. I see that church can get more clinging then any other environment. As new comer, I wonder what it must feel like wanting to be accepted and notice.
For example, our typical conversation when meeting new people evolve from where we are from to what we do. Within the discussed, do we over exaggerate or agree on something that you are not totally passionate about because the crowd you want to be accepted is in consensus of it? Do we constrict some of the truth with lies?
I think we all been in that position once in our life, where we might say something that is semi truth to it to ease the relationship. Or even like my experiences with the family back in Oregon, my aunts (Jeong & Yom) and her daughter (Amy) will go into small church group meetings and the discussion would be how my parents has steal and coned them. Even blaming their previous responsibilities were not successful because of my parents. Now the question is how much of it is truth to it? Would this conversations be accepted by God?
Do we wrap our self in this pretty gift paper so that God will like us for what we are? I believe not, God wants us to speak in his grace. Don't extract the truth into something over the top discussion. He wants us to speak from our heart, and know how to judge what is the righteous ways to boast versus maybe not saying anything is the best way to respect yourself and right ways which God has planned for you.
The ways you boast and get the acceptance or embed the image amongst the peers that you want, how good does that feel knowing that God does not approve a bit of your ways of boasting? We should only contain what the truth is, and versus speaking of others, think and boast of how great God is in our life, what he has blessed us with.
Application:
Though I am trying to change, it is definitely tough challenge to keep my head and heart straight to God everyday and every minute. Like today's sermon we do get lead into temptation, exaggerating or over emphasizing a small fact about me to others thinking I may get accepted or liked.
I do feel afterwards, because it is partially truth of me. I know and been challenge to keep my mouth in silences if I rather not over emphasize it. Rather be truth what little that might be and God will plan out the next step.
My daily discussion should be God emphasis not "Margaret" emphasis. I need to try to speak in who I am today or is working to be despite of all the problems because of God. This will measure the truth and may lead to more God oriented day to day.
Prayer:
Our Father, Heavenly Father, thank you for your blessing today and pouring out your love for me and my family. Thank you for providing so much blessing and healing in me and my family. LORD we continue to ask for your guidance to forgive and love those who have betrayed us, please lead us not into temptation. I pray you would open our heart and soul to seek you and prioritize you in our life, as you are the utmost precious thing in our life. Help us that the words come out of our mouth will be humble and in your righteous path.
Thank you for dying on a cross to save me and wash my sins away. Father may you use my hands and mouth and feet for your great plans. That I will not contaminate the flesh you have given with lies and sins, but I would seek to you for your guidance to walk the path you have planned for me.
Thank you for surrounding your Holiness around me and my family, and keeping us save and protected throughout where we live.
LORD pray you will continue to mold my heart and soul to be cleanse and find the heart to forgive and love again. In your gracious name I pray AMEN!
4/9/2011 - "Give from your heart, not because you want to leverage your sin by giving"
Scripture:
2 Corinthians 9: 7-9 "Each one must do just as he has purposed in his heart, not grudgingly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. 8: And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that always having all sufficiency in everything, you may have an abundance for every good deed; 9: as it is written,
"HE SCATTERED ABROAD, HE GAVE TO THE POOR, HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS ENDURES FOREVER."
Observation:
During our small group discussion, giving has been a large focus of our topic. Especially with natural devastation in Japan and the book we been reading "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan. At times, I wonder where my heart stands in giving because I wonder I feel obligated to give in order to leverage my sins? By giving I may think that I am making a deal with God, to ask for forgiveness of some of my sins? Is this how it should be? I know I have the desire in my heart to give more then ever. With family and job struggles I have been in, through those tough times I was more than blessed with abundance, but what is stopping me from giving from my heart?
Is gift only measured in monetary value? My answer would be definitely "NO." I been struggling with the idea of mentoring a children who comes from single parent home. Where they are no necessarily neglected but have much of time alone. My heart calls out to mentor them, and provide the some moral guidance that they cannot seek from their parents. Like the scripture says, though I do not make grand salary, I know God provides enough for me to give and to live in his grace. But what is stopping me from giving?
I think we live in society where our values are measure by branding. Meaning which car we drive, house we live in, how big is your house. What brands we dress our self in, least but not last, job title and the salary we make. We find comfort in having that money to have the free will to enjoy leisure activities and go on a shopping spree. Let me ask, does giving mean giving money? I would be interested to see how others answer that questions. We lose focus on what real gift of giving is.
Does does not want us to give out of obligation, but he wants our heart to be rejoicing when we give. Just like the gift we receive from our LORD is so grand and is natural, like that we should also be giving in natural ways. Not necessarily offering every Sunday, but just small act of random kindness to strangers and forgiving your enemy is form of gift that is from your sincere heart.
Application:
I think my head is on the correct path of knowing giving from my heart. I still struggle with giving and leverage my sins. I don't think that will ever go away until I join my LORD in heaven. I need to pursue where my sincere heart is wanting to serve. Serving is form of giving gift to others. To do so, I lack network, so how do I go about moving forward with this? I need to be committed and pursue more aggressively rather then waiting for the wave to come around.
God does not want us to be lazy, but be proactive. I need to learn to listen to my heart, that though I may think I need to give to leverage my sins, but listen to my heart, these thoughts of mentor ship and giving are because I have receive so much already, it is tiny dust spec of what I am returning to the LORD. I should not worry about tomorrow, as cheerful givers GOD will pour abundance gift on me. And honestly I really don't worry, and if so I become so poor tomorrow, I know it is part of God's plan for much grandeur and greater gift that no one can imagine. How exciting is that... Anticipation will be running high.. But I need to live daily in excitement and high anticipation about giving and of tomorrow.
Tomorrow is a gift from GOD, I am not here to just receive but also give back what I have be blessed with.
Prayer:
Mercy God, hear my cry and hear my praise. Thank you so much for greatest gift of all, sacrificing your Son to wash my sins always. So that I may live in this flesh in this world. Lord give me the guidance and lead to be a good shepherd, I may use my hand and mouth wisely to do your will on this earth. Thank you so much blessing for my family and I. Through struggle you never forgot us, and you have poured your love and blessing on us. Providing protection and health through this stressful times. We thank you and we love you. I ask for your help that you will stir my heart that I may not feel obligated but my giving will be cheerful to you. It is very very small gift but Lord you may rejoice and use wisely. I thank you for loving me, providing so much abundance in my life and my family. You are amazing and gracious.
Heavenly Father, cleanse my heart and soul that I may have courage to forgive and love those who have betrayed my family. I may find peace in my heart to forgive and accept them back in my life. You are the healer of this universe, and you are the Almighty judge, I praise your grace and love upon me and my family.
Thank you and I love you! Thank you for today, and thank you for what you will bless me with tomorrow. In your name I pray Amen!
2 Corinthians 9: 7-9 "Each one must do just as he has purposed in his heart, not grudgingly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. 8: And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that always having all sufficiency in everything, you may have an abundance for every good deed; 9: as it is written,
"HE SCATTERED ABROAD, HE GAVE TO THE POOR, HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS ENDURES FOREVER."
Observation:
During our small group discussion, giving has been a large focus of our topic. Especially with natural devastation in Japan and the book we been reading "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan. At times, I wonder where my heart stands in giving because I wonder I feel obligated to give in order to leverage my sins? By giving I may think that I am making a deal with God, to ask for forgiveness of some of my sins? Is this how it should be? I know I have the desire in my heart to give more then ever. With family and job struggles I have been in, through those tough times I was more than blessed with abundance, but what is stopping me from giving from my heart?
Is gift only measured in monetary value? My answer would be definitely "NO." I been struggling with the idea of mentoring a children who comes from single parent home. Where they are no necessarily neglected but have much of time alone. My heart calls out to mentor them, and provide the some moral guidance that they cannot seek from their parents. Like the scripture says, though I do not make grand salary, I know God provides enough for me to give and to live in his grace. But what is stopping me from giving?
I think we live in society where our values are measure by branding. Meaning which car we drive, house we live in, how big is your house. What brands we dress our self in, least but not last, job title and the salary we make. We find comfort in having that money to have the free will to enjoy leisure activities and go on a shopping spree. Let me ask, does giving mean giving money? I would be interested to see how others answer that questions. We lose focus on what real gift of giving is.
Does does not want us to give out of obligation, but he wants our heart to be rejoicing when we give. Just like the gift we receive from our LORD is so grand and is natural, like that we should also be giving in natural ways. Not necessarily offering every Sunday, but just small act of random kindness to strangers and forgiving your enemy is form of gift that is from your sincere heart.
Application:
I think my head is on the correct path of knowing giving from my heart. I still struggle with giving and leverage my sins. I don't think that will ever go away until I join my LORD in heaven. I need to pursue where my sincere heart is wanting to serve. Serving is form of giving gift to others. To do so, I lack network, so how do I go about moving forward with this? I need to be committed and pursue more aggressively rather then waiting for the wave to come around.
God does not want us to be lazy, but be proactive. I need to learn to listen to my heart, that though I may think I need to give to leverage my sins, but listen to my heart, these thoughts of mentor ship and giving are because I have receive so much already, it is tiny dust spec of what I am returning to the LORD. I should not worry about tomorrow, as cheerful givers GOD will pour abundance gift on me. And honestly I really don't worry, and if so I become so poor tomorrow, I know it is part of God's plan for much grandeur and greater gift that no one can imagine. How exciting is that... Anticipation will be running high.. But I need to live daily in excitement and high anticipation about giving and of tomorrow.
Tomorrow is a gift from GOD, I am not here to just receive but also give back what I have be blessed with.
Prayer:
Mercy God, hear my cry and hear my praise. Thank you so much for greatest gift of all, sacrificing your Son to wash my sins always. So that I may live in this flesh in this world. Lord give me the guidance and lead to be a good shepherd, I may use my hand and mouth wisely to do your will on this earth. Thank you so much blessing for my family and I. Through struggle you never forgot us, and you have poured your love and blessing on us. Providing protection and health through this stressful times. We thank you and we love you. I ask for your help that you will stir my heart that I may not feel obligated but my giving will be cheerful to you. It is very very small gift but Lord you may rejoice and use wisely. I thank you for loving me, providing so much abundance in my life and my family. You are amazing and gracious.
Heavenly Father, cleanse my heart and soul that I may have courage to forgive and love those who have betrayed my family. I may find peace in my heart to forgive and accept them back in my life. You are the healer of this universe, and you are the Almighty judge, I praise your grace and love upon me and my family.
Thank you and I love you! Thank you for today, and thank you for what you will bless me with tomorrow. In your name I pray Amen!
4/8/2011 - "Don't measure your wealth by monetary value, but by your blessing"
Scripture:
2 Corinthians 8: 9 " For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that though He was rich, yet for your sake He became poor, so that you through His poverty might become rich."
Observation:
Amen! When I read this, the circumstance myself and my family are faced with comes directly in contrast. My parents got involved in a business deal with my two aunts (of the oldest (Jeong) is elder at her church and 2nd oldest (Yom) is supposedly this angel at her catholic church). My mom took on managing the business at the worst time of economy for 15 months, within that time, she decided to take salary of only $1,000 a month, he workd to provide $3,000 returns to each members. So the problem started when national unemployment was over 10% and Oregon unemployment was over 12% and people were not coming to eat and enjoy leisure activity, so my mom couldn't provide $3,000 return to each (for the last few months of her mangement) however, or instead $2,000 or $1,500. Of course those two ladies didn't even lay a footstep into the store during her management. They did participate in helping with grocery shopping, which my parents take initative that it would save cost to do shopping on their own. The real icing on the cake is when my 2nd aunt (Yom) convinces student at PSU who studys Accounting at the time to help with auditing my mom's work, after that has many accusations: 1. accused that she had stealed approximately $20K from the business. Without any spec of proof, that was what she was announcing and bad mouthing to everyone within the state of Oregon. 2. My older aunt sided and decided to out rule my mom and had my 2nd aunt daughter (Amy) and her long time bf soon to be fiance (Daniel) to run the business. Of course her daughter had to get paid 3 times more. And during that time, my parents did not receive a penny of return from them from the business, though business was improving. I guess what is my point in all this rubbish? Well, that family relationship has been severely broken, once they couldn't justified the stealing of $20K, 3. my 2nd aunt had annouced again to the world that my parents were not 1/3 share owners of the business, lastly but no least, 4. my parents had steal $70K from the business. The real layer icing is that 2nd aunts daughter (Amy) is just like her mother, spreading slanders, calling my mom and myself wh**e and actually violating personal privacy by sharing personal information with total stranger - giving personal phone number and email address.
Now, where does the scripture fit into this feud, the point is that these people are so blinded by monetary wealth, though they preach themselves to be honest and people of God, then what is the purpose of this damages? Is it worth it? Hope it was worth it to them, ultimately, as we know God give us this wealth, the luxury we have today, but he can definitely take it away in a snap of finger. But when that wealth and luxury is taken away from them, wonder how they react? Will they blame God, or once again they blame someone else, rather then reflect the wealth that was provided by God and rejoice. Guess until they receive taste of their own medicine we won't know.
Through this circumstances, our family been through frustration and disagreement. My sister and I being from this generation would like to take more assertive action, however, my parents are old fashion they see that it is last resort to family feud. But our lesson from this is that, we are blessed, more blessed then them. We don't live in fear and we do not live in lies. Definitely, we are blesses to have the abundance, for wealth cannot be measure in monetary, yes that can be helpful if you have it, however wealth is how happy are you in your life and even without anything. Can you endure and rejoice in the tough times versus only rejoice during the high moments. I rather have nothing and rejoice in the greatest gift of all, knowing that I will be with my God in heaven and that he pours so much love for me that I am more blessed then in any other circumstance.
Application:
Got to be grateful, by blessing is countless. Really this job, money all comes from God, and like I said I could die tomorrow or even next minute. But I know so many count their gift from God and blessing through monetary value. Some people would con others to get most of it, but is it really worth and do you feel better afterwards? I know God sacrifice so much more to give this countless blessing in my life. Having roof over my head, even just being able to sit here and just share with him. But my ultimate blessing will be when I will be with my LORD in heaven. But it will be very sad to see that once my loved ones will not join me. Through pain and feud, I know God has his protection over me and my family. Though my family struggle to meet day to day needs, we are so overwhelmed with his gifts, family being safe and still being there for each other. We decided to lean on to the LORD and cry onto him for his will bring justices, and will bring righteousness amongst our family.
I think I am going through this change in my life, where I may let my cousins hurt me and my family with hatred words, and statements which are untrue, or are tweaked from the truth. I will and cannot became as them, for I have too much to lose. God could have rejoice in his riches, but he decide to sacrifice all that for me, that is so unmeasurable. Through this I continue to seek the LORD and find justice and peace in him. For we do not know what tomorrow will bring. But I know tomorrow will be a new day to look forward too, it will be fill with his gifts and new blessing.
Prayer:
Oh heavenly Father, healer of all, thank you sooo much for loving me blessing with so much of your love and gift. Sometime it is overwhelming at times, but you have blessed me with this so that I can share with others. LORD hear my cry and hear my families cry, as we struggle through pain and sadness of betrayal from our love one, heal our hearts and give us courage to forgive and love them again. As we are no one to judge but you will bring justice to this. Father, thank you for protecting our family and my sister who is in Korea, alone planning her wedding. Give her the moral support that my mother and I cannot give, surround her with other fellow sisters of Christ so that she may come to seek you more.
I do not know if I deserve your love, but I was chosen for a reason, help me to be a great example and use my mouth and hands wisely to do your work. I love you, Father you are amazing and you are mighty... You are the ruler of this universe, help me to prioritize you in my life through all the struggles and day to day craziness, I may open my heart and listen, versus continue on moving and moving. Thank you for my family, Herbie, and abundance of gift in my life and my family life. LORD guide us, protect us and thank you so much for loving us unconditionally. In your name I pray Amen!
2 Corinthians 8: 9 " For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that though He was rich, yet for your sake He became poor, so that you through His poverty might become rich."
Observation:
Amen! When I read this, the circumstance myself and my family are faced with comes directly in contrast. My parents got involved in a business deal with my two aunts (of the oldest (Jeong) is elder at her church and 2nd oldest (Yom) is supposedly this angel at her catholic church). My mom took on managing the business at the worst time of economy for 15 months, within that time, she decided to take salary of only $1,000 a month, he workd to provide $3,000 returns to each members. So the problem started when national unemployment was over 10% and Oregon unemployment was over 12% and people were not coming to eat and enjoy leisure activity, so my mom couldn't provide $3,000 return to each (for the last few months of her mangement) however, or instead $2,000 or $1,500. Of course those two ladies didn't even lay a footstep into the store during her management. They did participate in helping with grocery shopping, which my parents take initative that it would save cost to do shopping on their own. The real icing on the cake is when my 2nd aunt (Yom) convinces student at PSU who studys Accounting at the time to help with auditing my mom's work, after that has many accusations: 1. accused that she had stealed approximately $20K from the business. Without any spec of proof, that was what she was announcing and bad mouthing to everyone within the state of Oregon. 2. My older aunt sided and decided to out rule my mom and had my 2nd aunt daughter (Amy) and her long time bf soon to be fiance (Daniel) to run the business. Of course her daughter had to get paid 3 times more. And during that time, my parents did not receive a penny of return from them from the business, though business was improving. I guess what is my point in all this rubbish? Well, that family relationship has been severely broken, once they couldn't justified the stealing of $20K, 3. my 2nd aunt had annouced again to the world that my parents were not 1/3 share owners of the business, lastly but no least, 4. my parents had steal $70K from the business. The real layer icing is that 2nd aunts daughter (Amy) is just like her mother, spreading slanders, calling my mom and myself wh**e and actually violating personal privacy by sharing personal information with total stranger - giving personal phone number and email address.
Now, where does the scripture fit into this feud, the point is that these people are so blinded by monetary wealth, though they preach themselves to be honest and people of God, then what is the purpose of this damages? Is it worth it? Hope it was worth it to them, ultimately, as we know God give us this wealth, the luxury we have today, but he can definitely take it away in a snap of finger. But when that wealth and luxury is taken away from them, wonder how they react? Will they blame God, or once again they blame someone else, rather then reflect the wealth that was provided by God and rejoice. Guess until they receive taste of their own medicine we won't know.
Through this circumstances, our family been through frustration and disagreement. My sister and I being from this generation would like to take more assertive action, however, my parents are old fashion they see that it is last resort to family feud. But our lesson from this is that, we are blessed, more blessed then them. We don't live in fear and we do not live in lies. Definitely, we are blesses to have the abundance, for wealth cannot be measure in monetary, yes that can be helpful if you have it, however wealth is how happy are you in your life and even without anything. Can you endure and rejoice in the tough times versus only rejoice during the high moments. I rather have nothing and rejoice in the greatest gift of all, knowing that I will be with my God in heaven and that he pours so much love for me that I am more blessed then in any other circumstance.
Application:
Got to be grateful, by blessing is countless. Really this job, money all comes from God, and like I said I could die tomorrow or even next minute. But I know so many count their gift from God and blessing through monetary value. Some people would con others to get most of it, but is it really worth and do you feel better afterwards? I know God sacrifice so much more to give this countless blessing in my life. Having roof over my head, even just being able to sit here and just share with him. But my ultimate blessing will be when I will be with my LORD in heaven. But it will be very sad to see that once my loved ones will not join me. Through pain and feud, I know God has his protection over me and my family. Though my family struggle to meet day to day needs, we are so overwhelmed with his gifts, family being safe and still being there for each other. We decided to lean on to the LORD and cry onto him for his will bring justices, and will bring righteousness amongst our family.
I think I am going through this change in my life, where I may let my cousins hurt me and my family with hatred words, and statements which are untrue, or are tweaked from the truth. I will and cannot became as them, for I have too much to lose. God could have rejoice in his riches, but he decide to sacrifice all that for me, that is so unmeasurable. Through this I continue to seek the LORD and find justice and peace in him. For we do not know what tomorrow will bring. But I know tomorrow will be a new day to look forward too, it will be fill with his gifts and new blessing.
Prayer:
Oh heavenly Father, healer of all, thank you sooo much for loving me blessing with so much of your love and gift. Sometime it is overwhelming at times, but you have blessed me with this so that I can share with others. LORD hear my cry and hear my families cry, as we struggle through pain and sadness of betrayal from our love one, heal our hearts and give us courage to forgive and love them again. As we are no one to judge but you will bring justice to this. Father, thank you for protecting our family and my sister who is in Korea, alone planning her wedding. Give her the moral support that my mother and I cannot give, surround her with other fellow sisters of Christ so that she may come to seek you more.
I do not know if I deserve your love, but I was chosen for a reason, help me to be a great example and use my mouth and hands wisely to do your work. I love you, Father you are amazing and you are mighty... You are the ruler of this universe, help me to prioritize you in my life through all the struggles and day to day craziness, I may open my heart and listen, versus continue on moving and moving. Thank you for my family, Herbie, and abundance of gift in my life and my family life. LORD guide us, protect us and thank you so much for loving us unconditionally. In your name I pray Amen!
4/7/2011 - "Heart of the lost and I am found"
Scripture:
2 Corinthians 7: 9 "I now rejoice, not that you were made sorrowful, but that you were made sorrowful to the point of repentance; for you were made sorrowful according to the will of God, so that you might not suffer loss in anything through us."
Observation:
Amazing story, amazing letter Paul writes. Lately, Laura Story's song called Blessing the lyrics have been touched. I feel like we live in a world we are not happy with what we have but we get so caught up with intertwine of the cycle that we desire more. We keep in our mind that more is better (better job, better house, better financial status, better everything). Honestly, we are who we are today for sake of God. We compare our self with those who might be in better position then we are, we may even envy them. Sometimes we want to be that priority person with our significant others, but when I feel a bit of voided, I analyze into every tiny spec of seconds in my relationship. I hope for the affections directed toward me and when I find out that might not be the case or cannot justify that it is, then I question the validity of the relationship? Yearning to be important to someone, we struggle daily. Loneliness can lead to darkness in our life, but I really should think nonetheless, and review and praise of all the blessing in my life. Just like the lyrics Blessing comes from raindrop and healing of our soul comes from tears. Our sorrows and loneliness God wants us to come to him. He want us to come and talk about our fears, anxiety we have within us. There is no one else who understand and know us well enough to heal us. I get caught up with family betrayals and personal relationship struggle, I may find very short temporary ways of dealing with that. But ultimate healing and trying to find the soul which I have lost through drinking the sorrows or closing my heart to the world will come from talking with my Father. He feels my sorrows, and he does not want me to suffer and struggle alone. He want me to rejoice in this sorrows and suffer no more for he is here to carry me when my feet's are tired, and be the light in the darkness to guide me through the righteous path.
Application:
This crazy life and war I am fighting will not be defeated alone. But I know I have warriors of God's angels and Captian God in this war. So I will dwell and survive and win through this. I don't need to feel like I belong to someone to feel existed, rather my existence should be linked with God. I shall be rejoicing and praising for my existence in this world. I need to learn to when the these feeling I may experience should be discussed with God, just like I do with any friends over a coup of coffee. Rather discuss with God whenever and where ever, there is no need to plan or try to reschedule. God is always there to swipe my suffering and uplift me through the sorrows. Therefore I shall rejoice and sing with joyful heart daily. For I will not be standing or sitting here today if it wasn't for his blessing and his sacrifices to save me. I was chosen for a reason so I need to carry out my responsibility with dignity.
Prayer:
Father, use my eyes, mouth and hands to do your work in these sinful world. You have started to mold my heart and soul, I fear the changes however, this fear I feel is amazing knowing that it is you making me into better person. Continue to cleanse my heart and mind, I ask of you to help me forgive and love those who have betrayed me and my family. Father your blessing is overwhelming, and I take many blessing for granted, but open my eyes that I will listen to your calling. I rejoice in small gifts you give daily. Through those gift I know you will wash my sorrow and darkness away, you will bring this pure cleanse heart in me. You are amazing and magnificent, I thank you, thank you! Amen!
2 Corinthians 7: 9 "I now rejoice, not that you were made sorrowful, but that you were made sorrowful to the point of repentance; for you were made sorrowful according to the will of God, so that you might not suffer loss in anything through us."
Observation:
Amazing story, amazing letter Paul writes. Lately, Laura Story's song called Blessing the lyrics have been touched. I feel like we live in a world we are not happy with what we have but we get so caught up with intertwine of the cycle that we desire more. We keep in our mind that more is better (better job, better house, better financial status, better everything). Honestly, we are who we are today for sake of God. We compare our self with those who might be in better position then we are, we may even envy them. Sometimes we want to be that priority person with our significant others, but when I feel a bit of voided, I analyze into every tiny spec of seconds in my relationship. I hope for the affections directed toward me and when I find out that might not be the case or cannot justify that it is, then I question the validity of the relationship? Yearning to be important to someone, we struggle daily. Loneliness can lead to darkness in our life, but I really should think nonetheless, and review and praise of all the blessing in my life. Just like the lyrics Blessing comes from raindrop and healing of our soul comes from tears. Our sorrows and loneliness God wants us to come to him. He want us to come and talk about our fears, anxiety we have within us. There is no one else who understand and know us well enough to heal us. I get caught up with family betrayals and personal relationship struggle, I may find very short temporary ways of dealing with that. But ultimate healing and trying to find the soul which I have lost through drinking the sorrows or closing my heart to the world will come from talking with my Father. He feels my sorrows, and he does not want me to suffer and struggle alone. He want me to rejoice in this sorrows and suffer no more for he is here to carry me when my feet's are tired, and be the light in the darkness to guide me through the righteous path.
Application:
This crazy life and war I am fighting will not be defeated alone. But I know I have warriors of God's angels and Captian God in this war. So I will dwell and survive and win through this. I don't need to feel like I belong to someone to feel existed, rather my existence should be linked with God. I shall be rejoicing and praising for my existence in this world. I need to learn to when the these feeling I may experience should be discussed with God, just like I do with any friends over a coup of coffee. Rather discuss with God whenever and where ever, there is no need to plan or try to reschedule. God is always there to swipe my suffering and uplift me through the sorrows. Therefore I shall rejoice and sing with joyful heart daily. For I will not be standing or sitting here today if it wasn't for his blessing and his sacrifices to save me. I was chosen for a reason so I need to carry out my responsibility with dignity.
Prayer:
Father, use my eyes, mouth and hands to do your work in these sinful world. You have started to mold my heart and soul, I fear the changes however, this fear I feel is amazing knowing that it is you making me into better person. Continue to cleanse my heart and mind, I ask of you to help me forgive and love those who have betrayed me and my family. Father your blessing is overwhelming, and I take many blessing for granted, but open my eyes that I will listen to your calling. I rejoice in small gifts you give daily. Through those gift I know you will wash my sorrow and darkness away, you will bring this pure cleanse heart in me. You are amazing and magnificent, I thank you, thank you! Amen!
4/5/2011 - "I died when God had died on the Cross - We are one with God"
Scripture:
2 Corinthians 5: 16 "Therefore from now on we recognize no one according to the flesh even though we have known Christ according to the flesh, yet now we know Him in this way no longer. Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come."
Observation:
I shall idolize and have passion for God, but do I really. When I walk through the store or peek through magazine, I might find something so great at the moment, I desire more then anything. That desire, is it outcast, my desire for God, feeling it with materialistic things to feel my pain. I don't take sinning lightly, nor do I take forgiveness lightly. Though I know my sins are washed away and born again Christian, then why do we continue to sin? Do we take this acknowledgment God die on a cross and rose in three days lightly? Because it happen every year? I ponder upon these two versus today, though I recognize God, he has given me this flesh to live in this world, which if he wishes can take it away instantly, am I a new person washed of my old sins? He has taken away (temporarily or permanently) large factor in life that was huge sins, though my feelings are still up in the air with this situation I know that God has plan for me. Feeling of pain and hurt doesn't help me to feel new but definitely helps to see the light of recognizing God and his love, for he grand plans.
Application:
If I am new Christian due to sacrifice of Jesus for my transgression, I should live up to that expectation. I sin even without my knowledge daily, but I shall speak to God daily in my prayers and recognize that God knows the struggle with temptation and yielding to sins from the temptation. He will walk every steps to over come and teach me from each sins that I commit, getting my walk through that stairs for eternal life closer and closer.
Prayer:
Powerful one, healer of all pains, you have given this obstacles in my life for a purpose. Give me the strength to understand that purpose and able to fulfil that purpose. Thought momentarily it is painful, you are the only one who understand and have the rightful plan for me. That the life which I live in this world in this flesh maybe righteous one.
2 Corinthians 5: 16 "Therefore from now on we recognize no one according to the flesh even though we have known Christ according to the flesh, yet now we know Him in this way no longer. Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come."
Observation:
I shall idolize and have passion for God, but do I really. When I walk through the store or peek through magazine, I might find something so great at the moment, I desire more then anything. That desire, is it outcast, my desire for God, feeling it with materialistic things to feel my pain. I don't take sinning lightly, nor do I take forgiveness lightly. Though I know my sins are washed away and born again Christian, then why do we continue to sin? Do we take this acknowledgment God die on a cross and rose in three days lightly? Because it happen every year? I ponder upon these two versus today, though I recognize God, he has given me this flesh to live in this world, which if he wishes can take it away instantly, am I a new person washed of my old sins? He has taken away (temporarily or permanently) large factor in life that was huge sins, though my feelings are still up in the air with this situation I know that God has plan for me. Feeling of pain and hurt doesn't help me to feel new but definitely helps to see the light of recognizing God and his love, for he grand plans.
Application:
If I am new Christian due to sacrifice of Jesus for my transgression, I should live up to that expectation. I sin even without my knowledge daily, but I shall speak to God daily in my prayers and recognize that God knows the struggle with temptation and yielding to sins from the temptation. He will walk every steps to over come and teach me from each sins that I commit, getting my walk through that stairs for eternal life closer and closer.
Prayer:
Powerful one, healer of all pains, you have given this obstacles in my life for a purpose. Give me the strength to understand that purpose and able to fulfil that purpose. Thought momentarily it is painful, you are the only one who understand and have the rightful plan for me. That the life which I live in this world in this flesh maybe righteous one.
4/4/2011 - "Secrets to unseen and unknown"
Scripture:
2 Corinthians 4: 18 “While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal.”
Observation:
I get so caught up with the life of the day, and relationship of the day, I forgot that all things move in circular motion. Meaning, I was put into this place for a purpose, and the relationship I face daily is to possibly share my faith. The circumstance that might come in full circle might be God has intervened that it is not the right time or thing to be doing. He wants me to refocus and reroute to my path. But why is it so hard to think when things are spiraling in the moment? My emotions get to me, no matter how sincerely I understand and feel for, still the fact that I was played was extremely hurtful. Why can I refocus my attention that, events in my life are happening so that God get refocus my faith? For the eternal life which I dream of, he is wanting me to seek… but refocusing my emotions and thoughts to him. Being angry at the situation is powerless, as I am being angry with God. Let the angers free, and look at the unseen of his purpose. We live in a world where we are fear of what tomorrow might bring, yet what the next few hours of will bring. Have to rely on be faithful that it will be glorious events in life which God will bring and lay it out to me.
Application:
I live in a world where day to day a full circle of patterns is. Get up, go to work, do my job, and sometimes have more relaxing days then other, come home and go to sleep. Where within that circle of the days, is my time with God? My time to enjoy and really focus my thoughts onto him? What appears in my eyes are temporary, however, what I might set aside for right before I go to bed should be happening more often than other daily activities. Just because God cannot been seen doesn’t mean that he is non existences, I just get preoccupied with daily work and trying to fulfill happiness to other I forget the key essential of it all, my work should be providing happiness for God, not anyone else. Going forward, I need to really think what I am doing is Gods calling, what I am doing is what will bring glory to God?
Prayer:
Majestic one, creator of me and this universe. Your work is so great, yet I forget to recognize and be the servant you have wanted me to be. I am easily irritable and lacks patience, especially circumstance does not work out to my plan. But teach me and guide me that my plans are nothing and the plan I should work towards is the plan you have for me.
4/2/2011 - "God's presences are everywhere and the power of prayer"
Scripture:
2 Corinthians 2: 14 "But thanks be to God, who always leads us in triumph in Christ, and manifests through us the sweet aroma of the knowledge of Him in every place."
Observation:
No matter what the circumstances we are face with at the moment it might feel the last disastrous thing in the world and cry out to God, but do we really take a breath and look back and reflect that all things happen according to his plan. Today, Dan and I decided to go our separate ways, for many years which I was involved in such dangerous relationship, I prayed and I compensated, but would I do the same for my relationship with God, to have and better relationship with God? Today happen because God has plan whether it is the testimony of our faith and love for each other, whatever that maybe, I shall thank God for the worst and the greatest, as I will be at peace and sweet success only in him.
Application:
Every fiber in this world is created for a purpose in God’s vision. I need to take back and enjoy the air and the beauty that rest around us. This are presence of the Him and his work around me. I know when my heart maybe is in pain, and I may put the defense mechanism to others, I need to stop and just cry out to him and be gracious in all circumstance. For that I can walk away from the fear and pain with much greater peace and triumphs of overcoming any oppressing obstacles. God gave this one life to be thankful and be his hand and mouth to do his will.
Prayer:
Give me the strength to speak the words, and do your will. Be my guidance to do such. So much suffering in this world, heal us, show your magnificent power and grace you have for us, as you are stirring my heart of forgiveness and love. Help me to set my priority straight and put you first before anyone and anything else in this world. I want to savor your aroma and knowledge, cleanse my heart and work my heart that I am not afraid to speak of you and to enjoy the small fibers you have created us to remind you always.
4/1/2011 - "Keep it clean and pure"
Scripture:
Palsm 50: 19 and 22 "You let your mouth loose in evil and your tongue frame deceit." "Now consider this, you who forget God. Or I will tear you in pieces, and there will be non to deliver."
Observation:
God is fair! Today has been difficult to keep it real. When you continue to get harassed by same person with same extreme words how do I keep my head and heart focus on God? How can I manage such harsh words and not come to same terms and spit out the same words in hopes that it will stop? Is it right to think revenge?
Application:
Absolutely true, no matter who beats me down, I need to be more focus on who I live to serve. By speaking and thinking to rebound in same manner is cursing out God. Need to remind myself daily though it is hurtful and painful it is nothing compare to the sacrifice God has made. He will judge me and the cursors.
Prayer:
Our Father, heavenly Father, heal me give me the strenght to seek you through such struggles and hurt. Though it is hurtful at the moment you have ultimate plan and guide me to walk in the direction you have visioned for me. Keep my heart clean and with such verbal abuse, I will think twice and think of you and lean to you for comfort and guidance in your words.
Palsm 50: 19 and 22 "You let your mouth loose in evil and your tongue frame deceit." "Now consider this, you who forget God. Or I will tear you in pieces, and there will be non to deliver."
Observation:
God is fair! Today has been difficult to keep it real. When you continue to get harassed by same person with same extreme words how do I keep my head and heart focus on God? How can I manage such harsh words and not come to same terms and spit out the same words in hopes that it will stop? Is it right to think revenge?
Application:
Absolutely true, no matter who beats me down, I need to be more focus on who I live to serve. By speaking and thinking to rebound in same manner is cursing out God. Need to remind myself daily though it is hurtful and painful it is nothing compare to the sacrifice God has made. He will judge me and the cursors.
Prayer:
Our Father, heavenly Father, heal me give me the strenght to seek you through such struggles and hurt. Though it is hurtful at the moment you have ultimate plan and guide me to walk in the direction you have visioned for me. Keep my heart clean and with such verbal abuse, I will think twice and think of you and lean to you for comfort and guidance in your words.
3/31/2011 - "My wealth comes from you"
Scripture:
1 Corinthians 16: 22-24 "If anyone does not love the Lord, he is to be accursed. Maranatha, The grave of the Lord Jesus be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen."
Observation:
Going through quarter end activity at work, for the first time in long days I went outside to take a walk around the building while speaking to a friend. In awe I was.. I was amazed by the beautiful weather and the beauty of the nature. We measure our wealth is by monetary, however, we forget how wealthy we are with the gift of nature. The trees and flower and spec of fibers around us are to maintain our being in this world to do his purpose. But as I was speaking with my friend I realized how lucky I was to have a job and be productive with my time. Having that cohesiveness in the work group can reduce much of our stress. As we were walking and wondering the trees and feeling the breeze, my look on life has changed lately a bit at a time, which bring stability and peace. Knowing he is always around me protecting me, that is the richest wealth you can every ask for.
Application:
How often do I thank and think of God? I know he is around but loving him unconditionally. Is God my priority in life? Probably not! Sad admit, daily and every minute, I need to love God for he love us unconditionally. We love him for who he is and his amazing heart. I need to love him and respect the things he created around me which bring abundance of wealth - as they work to provide a fresh breathe, road to drive safely and shall I continue?
Prayer:
Giving Father, healer of all, thank you for the beauty and the wealth you bring to us. Without your gift and the love you have for us we will not stand where we are, help me to be strong and learn to put my love for you as my priority in my life. Through you everything will fit into this missing puzzles, we are unable to finish this big puzzle our self. Your love is greatest wealth and gift we can ask for, help me to recognize that enjoy and savor every minute of it.
1 Corinthians 16: 22-24 "If anyone does not love the Lord, he is to be accursed. Maranatha, The grave of the Lord Jesus be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen."
Observation:
Going through quarter end activity at work, for the first time in long days I went outside to take a walk around the building while speaking to a friend. In awe I was.. I was amazed by the beautiful weather and the beauty of the nature. We measure our wealth is by monetary, however, we forget how wealthy we are with the gift of nature. The trees and flower and spec of fibers around us are to maintain our being in this world to do his purpose. But as I was speaking with my friend I realized how lucky I was to have a job and be productive with my time. Having that cohesiveness in the work group can reduce much of our stress. As we were walking and wondering the trees and feeling the breeze, my look on life has changed lately a bit at a time, which bring stability and peace. Knowing he is always around me protecting me, that is the richest wealth you can every ask for.
Application:
How often do I thank and think of God? I know he is around but loving him unconditionally. Is God my priority in life? Probably not! Sad admit, daily and every minute, I need to love God for he love us unconditionally. We love him for who he is and his amazing heart. I need to love him and respect the things he created around me which bring abundance of wealth - as they work to provide a fresh breathe, road to drive safely and shall I continue?
Prayer:
Giving Father, healer of all, thank you for the beauty and the wealth you bring to us. Without your gift and the love you have for us we will not stand where we are, help me to be strong and learn to put my love for you as my priority in my life. Through you everything will fit into this missing puzzles, we are unable to finish this big puzzle our self. Your love is greatest wealth and gift we can ask for, help me to recognize that enjoy and savor every minute of it.
3/30/2011 - "Be transformed, sign your life insurance with GOD"
Scripture:
1 Corinthians 15:10 "But by the grace of God I am what I am, and His grace toward me didn't prove vain; but I labored even more than all of them, yet not I, but the grace of God with me."
Observation:
Everyday I wonder if I am living up to fullest of God's gift and what he has envisioned me to be? We buy life insurance to protect the future of our family, but what about the life of eternity with God? Where do we buy that kind of insurance? Once we buy that insurance, we forget about God and how he has transformed us. Being in this world in the flesh we are we forget that gift he has given us. He died on the cross to give us that life insurance of eternal life. Think about it, job, be able to wake up next day is all done through grace of God, isn't that gift he gave us to transform this world with fresh start? As day goes by as minding my own business, there is small voice behind my head saying "Don't forget about me" then I turn on my K-Love radio station and reflect on me and score myself of my walk with God being able to fulfil the contracts of the life insurance I signed up for. To measure if it is to the expectation to fulfil that eternal life, then I wonder have I transformed to meet that expectation? (I guess I have more question regarding this scripture then observation)
Application:
I need to gear my heart to listen to that voice behind my head. I cannot e timid about who I am and my beliefs, I was chosen for reason. God had died in a cross and raised in 3 days for reason. Need to celebrate daily of his resurrection, without the presence of God I am not who I am today, would not exist in this world. Need to take baby steps of daily to transform this world into his world.
Prayer:
Magnificent God mold me to be the person you want me to be. I do not want to forget a bit of the terms and condition of that life insurance I have signed with you for the eternal life in Heaven with you. Help me to cleanse my heart - I may find courage to love and forgive those who speak deceitful lies of my family. You are a healer and you know what we are thinking before we process the thought. Bring your love and grace and pour onto me and my family that we continue to seek your standards always and forever.
1 Corinthians 15:10 "But by the grace of God I am what I am, and His grace toward me didn't prove vain; but I labored even more than all of them, yet not I, but the grace of God with me."
Observation:
Everyday I wonder if I am living up to fullest of God's gift and what he has envisioned me to be? We buy life insurance to protect the future of our family, but what about the life of eternity with God? Where do we buy that kind of insurance? Once we buy that insurance, we forget about God and how he has transformed us. Being in this world in the flesh we are we forget that gift he has given us. He died on the cross to give us that life insurance of eternal life. Think about it, job, be able to wake up next day is all done through grace of God, isn't that gift he gave us to transform this world with fresh start? As day goes by as minding my own business, there is small voice behind my head saying "Don't forget about me" then I turn on my K-Love radio station and reflect on me and score myself of my walk with God being able to fulfil the contracts of the life insurance I signed up for. To measure if it is to the expectation to fulfil that eternal life, then I wonder have I transformed to meet that expectation? (I guess I have more question regarding this scripture then observation)
Application:
I need to gear my heart to listen to that voice behind my head. I cannot e timid about who I am and my beliefs, I was chosen for reason. God had died in a cross and raised in 3 days for reason. Need to celebrate daily of his resurrection, without the presence of God I am not who I am today, would not exist in this world. Need to take baby steps of daily to transform this world into his world.
Prayer:
Magnificent God mold me to be the person you want me to be. I do not want to forget a bit of the terms and condition of that life insurance I have signed with you for the eternal life in Heaven with you. Help me to cleanse my heart - I may find courage to love and forgive those who speak deceitful lies of my family. You are a healer and you know what we are thinking before we process the thought. Bring your love and grace and pour onto me and my family that we continue to seek your standards always and forever.
3/29/2011 - "Bite your tongue"
Scripture:
Palsm 52: 2-4 " Your tongue devises destruction like a sharp razor o worker of deceit. You love evil more than good, falsehood more than speaking what is right. You love all words that devour o deceitful tongue."
Observation:
Who and how can so called Christian boast bitter words yet they fill remorse but rather preach to others that they are righteous beings? They point and oppress those who boast of them when they are committing the same sin? As an example of Christian, we should think really think twice before we speak, that goes for me. If it's bitterness against individual or particular situation, I realize it's better to bite my tongue and be cautious of my words. When we live in a society where everything is recorded and can be used against you when your intention were good.
Application:
Words have powerful consequences. we easily get hurt and misunderstood. I will need to think twice before I speak. I can sense that God is teaching me that through my struggles with my indirect families. It is reality, that family and business does not mix, but its more of struggles when the tongues blast and contribute of untrue stories. From this I have learned, if what I am about to say is of God purpose and is meaningful in righteous way, if not, then it's better not to say. God gave us mouth to be utilize in positive ways rather than use for deceit or to con others.
Prayer:
Heavenly Father, cleanse my heart, soul and mouth. We fill out mouth and heart with so many sins on day to day. Help me to utilize the tools you have given to preach your words and existence. Being able to share your love and kindness with others. Let my actions and tongue reflect your presence. Let me be graceful and just in what I say and do.
Palsm 52: 2-4 " Your tongue devises destruction like a sharp razor o worker of deceit. You love evil more than good, falsehood more than speaking what is right. You love all words that devour o deceitful tongue."
Observation:
Who and how can so called Christian boast bitter words yet they fill remorse but rather preach to others that they are righteous beings? They point and oppress those who boast of them when they are committing the same sin? As an example of Christian, we should think really think twice before we speak, that goes for me. If it's bitterness against individual or particular situation, I realize it's better to bite my tongue and be cautious of my words. When we live in a society where everything is recorded and can be used against you when your intention were good.
Application:
Words have powerful consequences. we easily get hurt and misunderstood. I will need to think twice before I speak. I can sense that God is teaching me that through my struggles with my indirect families. It is reality, that family and business does not mix, but its more of struggles when the tongues blast and contribute of untrue stories. From this I have learned, if what I am about to say is of God purpose and is meaningful in righteous way, if not, then it's better not to say. God gave us mouth to be utilize in positive ways rather than use for deceit or to con others.
Prayer:
Heavenly Father, cleanse my heart, soul and mouth. We fill out mouth and heart with so many sins on day to day. Help me to utilize the tools you have given to preach your words and existence. Being able to share your love and kindness with others. Let my actions and tongue reflect your presence. Let me be graceful and just in what I say and do.
3/28/2011 - "Love with all your Might"
Scripture:
1 Corinthians 13: 1-3 " If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have become a noisy gong or clanging cymabal. If I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. And if I give all my possessions to feed the poor, and if I surrender my body to be burned, but do not have love, it profits me nothing" - NASB
Observation:
No matter how much I seek approval, desire and multitude of thoughts of giving more, does this come from guilt? Does this desires come to leverage my exisitng sins? It is meaningless, if I am not able to love my neighbors and enemies, yet I worry about not giving enough. Forgiveness and kind heartly love the ones who has foul mouthed me. Like Palsm 39:1 "I will guard my ways that I may not sin with my tongues". How often is that the case? Especially when it come from your loved one? I know truth will be told so I shall not work to their levels, but rather see beyond the existing sins and love them.
Application:
This scripture hit to pit of my stomach, as this is long over due struggle. I need to be the better person, example to be laid out there. Through the pains and suffering, lean onto the God, speak to God of my pain and frustration. He will listen, and will lead to the right words to bring peace within. This way it will provide me to strenght to love and be righteous through his words.
Prayer:
"Our magnificant Father, Maker and Savior, stir and mold my heart to be more righteous. I know you walk along my struggle to forgive those who have brought pain, give me the strenght to forgive and love them, as you have love us unconditionally. We live in generation of hate and greed, help me so that my heart is focused on the right path"
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