2/12/13 - Romans 7 "Believers United to Christ"

Scripture:
Romans 7:5 " Therefore, my brethren, you also were made to die to the Law through the body of Christ, so that you might be joined to another, to Him who was raised from the dead, in order that we might bear fruit for God." (NASB)

Observation / Application:
I personally get so overwhelmed with past sins that I cannot move forward. Regardless what the degree of the sin (white lie vs. sins of actions) I cannot seem to relinquish myself to move forward. I feel like I am shackled to my guilt and that seems to drag me and sink me down. This is total advantage Saint will take on and to manipulate me into committing more sins. I am no perfect being, I been dealing with same issues for while. I have brought pain and sorrow to others. Many occasions, I admit and repent my sins of actions. Honestly, if I could just take back and turn time to redo or undo I would take that in a heart beat. Cause of this my future actions lead to more sins.. it was vicious cycle and continue to me. I have categorized some of my sins which fall under God's commandments that I have broken. I guess I know in back of my head that my sins are washed away by our Lord but its my mental mind and flesh that bound to continuous foul play. Its my mind that plays game that the sin is never to be forgiven. 

As we approach season of Lent, I am reminded again that I need to allow my flesh and mind to accept the gift God given me. Ultimate forgiveness when Christ died he took the entire sin dominating way of my life down with him and left it in the tomb when he rose, leaving me free. I need to allow God to help me deal with my sins and issues. In order to be totally free, I need let God help me and take control and guide me forgive the ones that need to be forgiven. If God was able to forgive such great sins like mine, I should be able to allow myself to forgive the ones who pain my parents and hurt my parents. For it is said in Proverbs 8: 6-7 "Listen, for I will speak noble things; And the opening of my lips will reveal right things. For my mouth will utter truth; And wickedness is an abomination to my lips." God will show the truth and the light. In the meantime, I shall let God take control to dwell the pain and sins. The concept of God reliving my from all this shackles of pains is overwhelming to accept, why me? do I deserve such kindness and second chance in life when I continue to disappoint him with same sins? God feels the pain that I feel and knows me better than anyone else. God knows it all nothing can be hidden from him. He empathize and sympathize with me through my struggles. I need to acknowledge his gift and his sacrifice and celebrate it versus sinking deeper. God gave this gift so I don't feel like I am shackled and tied to my guilt. his gift was given so that I may rejoice and feel this weight off my shoulder which I been carrying daily. Through his gift, I may celebrate and live a new life.