1/29/13 - Study of Romans "Results of Justification"

Scripture:
Romans 5: 8 "But God demonstrates His own love towards us, in that while we  were yet sinners, Christ dies for us."

Observation / Application:
We take notice of the noble men and women who fight for the freedom. We recognized them with honorable medals and rewards. Those men and women chose to serve the country and fight for the freedom of the country. Only selective people have that mind of serving and sacrificing their life on the line for others, people they don't even have connection or know in this world. As the citizens of this country we can only be grateful towards them for their services. It is selfless act of parents to sacrifice their children and selfless individual to fight for the rights of the country. But God had given the ultimate gift his Son as a sacrifice for save all of the us, the sinners which we are no use to him. For this solider who fought in Iraq and etc, get recognize and rewarded and there are so many veteran benefits for themselves and their generation. Prior to enlisting into service, they weigh out all the pros and cons, as their life is depended on it. But for God, he didn't hesitated or weigh the pros and cons prior to giving his Son as a sacrifice.

It is so hard to have the heart to share love like Jesus did. The act of kindness and love regardless of the person, who is difficult and easy to get along. My emotions get ahead of me, I tend to open up to people who are easy to get along, and less difficult with me. I should say who give less stress in my life. But as God save sinner like me who have no use, I should have little of flexibility to share love upon the ones who are difficult as well. Let God's grace pour out and the holy spirit work within me to share. Than maybe my heart and mind will form different opinions about the circumstance that may come across when dealing with such. I been fortunate enough to be dealing with great people in my past professional life, however, my recent move has come to brick wall, where I cannot get passed and share love with others. As I read this passage, I wonder is it my emotions and opinions of certain circumstance that I am allowing my judgement to over come. Letting this judgement affect my heart in how I see things? Probably so! Romans 5 is about God's grace overcoming sins and God's love onto all (sinners and goods). Maybe it is time to let my emotions position my heart, but rather, learn to pour out unconditional love upon these people and see where that leads me. 

I am chosen for a reason and I have a purpose to fulfill, if the start is to open my heart and forgive myself to start with, than God help me to forgive myself and learn to show mercy on myself. So that I may do the same to others. Let's make better choices with the gift of life God gave us by presenting his ultimate sacrifice to save someone like me.

1/24/13 - Study of Roman "Justification by Faith Evidenced in Old Testament"

Scripture:
Roman 4: 4-5 "Now to the one who works,his wage is not credited as a favor, but as what is due. But to the one who does not work, but believes in him who justifies the ungodly, his faith is credited as righteousness" (NASB)

Observation / Application
The turning point for our Father Abraham is that He trusted God to set him right instead of trying to be right on his own. It is excepting what God is doing in our life and trusting in him. Of course, our day to day routine (having job security, roof over our head and etc) can be taken that it is due to all our individual effort. Honestly, the primary source for us to have this opportunity and source of income to provide roof over our head is from God. It's God's gift that we analyze and try to point the success onto us. We want to pat our self rather than accepting as God's gift. 

Obviously, when things don't go as planned or in our favor, we question and doubt, and possibly blame God. Trust me, I been there and done that. That was how I drifted from God and his words. I didn't want to hear it, and when I did try to go back, I was only hearing what I wanted to hear. Regardless how much I tried to let Holy spirit speak to me, I still had the barrier to filter what I wanted to accept.

As much as we try to filter God, he puts extra effort to reach out to us. God is hurt by out lost and pain, he can related and he can heal. We are so often connected to humans and the current environment  we forget that God is there to heal us, listen to us, and help us through the rough and tough. When life seems too much for me, it is said in this versus, that we need to trust in God, he will complete the job in the direction he best see fit for us. We want to take control of our own destiny, but if you let God take control and trust in him to reveal his plans than we will be rewarded with greatest gift of all. Let God take the burden from me, and allow him to do the hard work. That is the gift, we need to realized and accept, that God is always available and willing, we just have to let him and trust in him. 

Just like once upon a time, when I found out I was diagnosed with cancer, epilepsy I couldn't believe or didn't know how I can trust in God who gave me all this. The effect on my family and myself, but I came out of it, and if I didn't allow God to lead, I am pretty sure I will be still suck with grudge, anger and allow myself to be pitiful  But I chose and with the help of family, church, and friends, I learned to allow my heart to listen and allow God to take control. Hence, I believe today I am healthy, and able to talk comfortable about my illness and remission. Through small experience which seems overwhelming at time, I can say God know! He is the one and only who can fix and provide the outcome that we so seek at the deepest time of our life.